today

learning what I can from the internet, woke up tired and with strong pins and needles/ fire feeling all over my head. I must be less tired than the previous week or so because I've had the energy to be online for 2 hours looking up info and joining medhelp. not happy though, talking to our legal advisor at work about a contract I'm trying to finalise with her help I nearly spontaneously burst out crying! yikes. glad to be signed off but scared about how long this will take to normalise and I can get on with my life or is my life going to be different now - had to cancel upcoming job interview planned for Monday. i won't be well enough so have lost that opportunity unless they are still hiring when I am better. really feeling highly insecure about all of this and can't help worrying that whatever it was that was wrong with mum may ultimately be behind what's going on with me now, or am I being ridiculous...good advice from KTK, "don't try to think too much when you feel under the weather." must remember that.