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Why is it when we want something so badly we can't have it???

Nov 07, 2009 04:49AM - 1 comments

I always think to myself how can i want something so badly that i can't have it now !!, I keep seeing all my friends on facebook going "oh we are 12 weeks pregnant" and here i am think i wish that was me, My sister calls me up and tells me she pregnant and it was an accident, but i'm happy for her as she is all set up married, house and a job. but I just wish that was me, i'm at the moment doing FSH injectables witha trigger shot, but even for my son i was on fertility treatments as well, on clomid, i just think how unfair it is that i have to pay for babies and it's just not happening, Is it mean of me to be thinking that way?? well don't think so. I have always dreamed of having 3 kids of my own i have 1 and 2 to go. Maybe i'm just getting tired of having to try but i know that if i have no drugs nothing is going to happen at all no regular cycles nothing, so it's all got to be done medically.

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by Meadow841, Nov 07, 2009 08:42AM
Hello- I just wanted to say I know how you feel. For 2 years people around me have been getting pregnant left and right...on their first try for multiple kids. Nothing was working for me and I felt so discouraged. I waited so long to get set up and ready, and then it just wasn't happening. All my friends are on baby #2, and my sister just had baby #2 and I was trying for so long. I had the same thoughts. Why me? Why do I have to pay to have children, when for everyone else it is free? The same thoughts you had. It is a terrible feeling, and I totally understand what you are going through. When I first conctacted my GYN and fertility clinic for help, I finally conceived about 6 months later with iui. They told us iui probably wouldn't even work, so I had to sign up for IVF for January. I was crying about the costs and our budget, and everything. And when I gave up hope completely, I found out I was pregnant. I know not much will make you feel better, but I just wanted you to know that I suffered too with those same thoughts. Miracles happen because they told us iui was only a 5% chance. I have faith that your BFP will come. Hang in there and don't give up. We're all here for ya!

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