Blazin Blowin Drinkn and poppin..Its what i do... now how do i stop?

I have been doing drugs since 9th grade. I started smoking freshman year and by junior year i was popping vikes before rock shows(I was in a band). that slowing progressed.. my junior year i was also one of the biggest weed dealers in my school. I thought it was cool to blaze 5 or 6 bongs before school with friends. Soon i started snortin them perKS. Since then ive blown coke a few times, smoked the finest cali trees, and sipped the finest wines. Life was great.

My band broke up. I now smoked my days away, i still jogged and went to the gym and everything. I also was snorting alot of pills. spending most of my checks on perKs and weed and anything else i could get my hands on.

I dont think blazing is such a big deal. its helped me open up my mind to other things that i wouldnt have opened my mind too. I could also freestyle lyrics like a mad man on the bowl. i was freesytling at live shows the dopest shitz i ever heard out of anybody.

Now i have no band i am going to college soon for music and art. But i think the pills have to stop its just that i think of stopping and then i snort a couple vikes and perks and im gone.I am still a year under 20 and havent been able to stop. i get pain in my side kidney area when i wake up and it doesnt go away until i blow again.

I needa stop because i repspect myself. but then i go back to my world surrounded in music and parties and i just cant cut loose. Im in good health.

Should i stop or should i keep going until i get sick of it. Im going to college in a couple months and i was hoping i wouldnt have time or the means to pop pills. Should i keep going and see if i get sick of it or should i stop immeadiately which ive been trying to do but without emotional distress or anything i just pop em up.

can i still have music, babes, and the college life without drugs. Let me hear from some people that have been to college lately.

Thanks guys
Chill