feeling frustrated

With all that has happened since 2008, i'm getting very leary of all these drs. I'm beginning to think it was to soon after chemo to go in and do the hip replacement. It was only 3 months from end of chemo and till when i did the hip. I really have not regained my strenght since. i want my life back! I want to be able to walk bend and even get up from a chair without pain. I am not asking much.  the ortho dr says hip is healing nicely, but the cysts on the knee is whats causing the pain, and they will go away eventually.  i still get tired very easily, annd can't do things i want to, without thinking about the pain or how tired i will get first. I haven't been depressed in months, but lately i'm feeling down and out, about all the things i can't seem to do anymore. the primay dr says loose another 20 lbs and you'll better. by the way blood work back from him. and yes still anemic. Can't take those damn iron pills. but am trying to put more iron in diet at least. the other day came home from work  and had to lie down, couldn't even go down stairs and get the laundry.  I quess i should just be thankfull I'm alive and walk some, but i quess i want more.  It's the little things i quess i miss. fooling around in my garden, raking up leaves, hell even picking up the cat, would be nice.  i quess being in pain for the last 19 months would drag anyone down a bit. and no i don't have any pain meds. the ortho dr  and primary don't believe i'm in pain, they say its in my head. Well i'm about ready to tell them to take it and shove it were the sun doesn't shine. sorry all i'm just aggravated today will see onc nxt week at least him i like and he listens to me. i'm just hoping the numbers are good. i do get on edge a bit right before i see him however. maybe thats what is bugging me some lol