Need help with these issues

First of all let me congratulate you on knowing you need help with your condition. because I was in a depression state and was in denial  but I have depression also but It comes and goes. I truly understand why you are going into a depression mode you has been through a lot of emotional trauma then you had knee replacement that limmitted your daily living activities I am the same way but surgery did not stop me chronic pain has stopped me from working which I was very good at my tittle the job might not seem like much to some people but to me it was a physical and mental job which was also life saveing. I can no longer be a patient care nurse assistant. But that was just one thing on earth god wanted me to do. even though I am not capable of doing that demanding , physical and emotional job anymore . there are support and help for us . So you are very lucky to be able to ask for help . Just now tell your Dr. that your depression is getting worst and see if there are any solutions to try .

He has increased my meds before my son left home as I anticipated this but there hasn't been a better result by doing so. When I retired from my first job, I worked as a CNA nights at assisted living while I worked my way thru nursing school. You really have my respect about how difficult that job is. I also have recently divorced after a very long term marriage which was over 20 yrs. I don't like changes as I get older and find them much harder to cope with then I used to. Your picture says you are too young to understand this. My oldest will be 38 on her birthday and my youngest one who just left for grad school is 23. Thanks for the sweet support. I know that not being able to work anymore is really hard to accept. I thought I would work until I died and never dreamed this could happen to me as I was too athletic. I need some assistance in the house but have to much pride to use them so I live with a little refridge in my bedroom and a microwave and get help from my son whenever he comes home. I have trouble putting things in cabinets, taking out clothes from my washer, etc. You are so sweet to offer support.
Joy,
Jewel