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Just expressing my mind some.
Jun 14, 2008 12:46AM
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I decided to journal today. I have had alot on my mind lately. Resulting in restlessness with the occasional spell of insomina! So maybe I can relive my little mind by expressing it....never hurts to try!!!
I have become so overwhelmed with joe's whole condition....I am so tired of the constant feeling of being helpless, what can I do ? I know he is in constant pain and all I can do is watch! I need a day when he can just suck it up, just one day as a special presant to me. I have asked him to please give me one day, but I guess he just can't...and I know it's not his fault. what can i do? I guess that's more of a retorical question than anything!LOL. I't Just gets old..like anything else I suppose! He is so worth it though.... X 1 million billion!!
Work is getting to be stressful...although I don't let that worry me, It to just gets old! I am over qualifyed for my job, yet I stay for the fact that it's close...for the most part comfortable....and I love the Owner so much...and most of my co- workers..lol! I am just ready I guess to to go back to school and do something I am good at! I have decided that psyoanalyis is my correct place in this world.....Now I must go register @ the collage.
I am ready to go to see my family in TX! Looking foward to the trip. I need to do some swimming and my mom has an awesome pool...plus we are going to search for treasure!!!!! Going to the old volcano gonna get me some incendary basalt.. full of ovaline plus I know I could find all kinds of awesome minerals all over that place!!! SUPER EXCITED!
Now I feel a little better!!! Expressing some of what's on mind did help!!
I have become so overwhelmed with joe's whole condition....I am so tired of the constant feeling of being helpless, what can I do ? I know he is in constant pain and all I can do is watch! I need a day when he can just suck it up, just one day as a special presant to me. I have asked him to please give me one day, but I guess he just can't...and I know it's not his fault. what can i do? I guess that's more of a retorical question than anything!LOL. I't Just gets old..like anything else I suppose! He is so worth it though.... X 1 million billion!!
Work is getting to be stressful...although I don't let that worry me, It to just gets old! I am over qualifyed for my job, yet I stay for the fact that it's close...for the most part comfortable....and I love the Owner so much...and most of my co- workers..lol! I am just ready I guess to to go back to school and do something I am good at! I have decided that psyoanalyis is my correct place in this world.....Now I must go register @ the collage.
I am ready to go to see my family in TX! Looking foward to the trip. I need to do some swimming and my mom has an awesome pool...plus we are going to search for treasure!!!!! Going to the old volcano gonna get me some incendary basalt.. full of ovaline plus I know I could find all kinds of awesome minerals all over that place!!! SUPER EXCITED!
Now I feel a little better!!! Expressing some of what's on mind did help!!
Brooke......I know I can't fully understand what you are going through with Joe's pain. Troy was in a fight @ the prison years ago,got his neck hurt.It took Workmans Comp. a full year to approve the surgery on his neck.He has cadaver bone and a titanium plate in his neck!!! He hurt constantly for a year,got hooked on sleeping pills for that year.He did come out of it fine....neck still hurts some.....but no pain pills or sleeping pills!!! I felt like my hands were tied...couldn't make the pain away!!! At times,I wanted to pack up and leave!!! He would say hurtful things to me,and I just put up with it....What else could I do!? Just be there for Joe,but also take care of Brooke! I know you are. I hope you do get into college.....I feel like good things are coming your way....one day!! Take one day at a time and make the best of it. Like the old story goes....live for today,tomorrow is never promised, and yesterday is gone!! I will always be here for you! I am a very good listener...always remember that. When I first got on MedHelp,I wrote a journal for @ least a month...then i acted stupid and deleted it!!! It was all about my THYROID stuff!!!! I wish i had it to read now...but oh well.............I think by you going to Texas for a visit will do you good!!! Have a good time with your mama and the rest of your family...time will fly and you will be back with Joe soon..you will be refreshed and ready to roll!!! Promise you!!!! Take care......................Janice
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