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My son is leaving home ;(

Jun 23, 2008 - 5 comments

My 19 year old son and I are really close and always have been. He is such a perfect young man. I know all mom's think their children are perfect. My son Kevin has never once been in any kind of trouble. Even as a child I don't even remember an occasion where he had to be disciplined. I wonder how in the world I ended up with such a perfect son! He graduated high school and got a job pushing carts at walmart and this was 1 & 1/2 years ago and now he is a co- manager at walmart. He sets the record in the entire company as being the youngest to achieve co manager postion in the least amount of time. The youngest to get co manager in the shortest time! WOW. He continues to amaze me everyday. When he first started at walmart he walked to work or rode his bike, he saved every penny and would not even buy a four dollar basketball because he wanted a brand new dodge charger/ hemi. He did not want to ask me and his dad fo help in getting his the car he has always wanted because we were building our much awaited dream  home at the time. I told him time and time again his dad and I would help him but he refused and he got his car six months after he walked to his first day of work at walmart. He is 19 years old and has worked his way to co manager at walmart and got a 40,000 dollar car all on his own. I am so very proud of him! He is now moving into a very nice upscale apartment/condo and I have been crying every since we went and signed the lease today. I can't let go ,  I can't understand how I am supposed to, I have raised this incredible young man fo r19 years and loved him unconditionally his entire life and been proud of everything he has ever done. So how I am supposed to just simply let go? I can't! I am having real difficulties and I don't see it getting any better! Has someone here gone thru this? Is there some magical advise out there that can help me? I am really heart broken and don't know what to do. Can anyone offer any advice that will help me deal with this better. I am not a writer by any means but I wrote this poem for him tonight.....
                                                                        MY PERFECT SON
                                                                                   ONLY  THIRTY MINUTES AWAY
         My son is the most perfect person I know
I wonder how it is that I gave birth to this wonderful
intelligent, loyal, well mannered little boy who turned
out to be such a perfect young man.
I can remember his first smile, his first word and it
is breaking my heart that I have to hear these dreaded
words... Mom I am only going to be thirty minutes away
so don't be so upset.
I have raised my son for twenty wonderful years
and love him unconditionaly and those thirty minutes
seem like a lifetime to me.
I cannot bear the tought of seeing his bedroom empty
I cannot bear to see his dinner plate still full
I cannot bear not hearing about his day
I cannot bear to be without my perfect son
Thirty minutes away is too long and too far
to be away from my son it is touture and it's
heartbreaking
to know I am not there to get his clothes ready
to make sure he has his wallet
to tell him to be careful
to tell him I love him
thirty minutes is a lifetime to me.
Perfection is one of my son's best quality's
my son is perfection and expects perfection
from himself and those around him
My son has so many great quality's
how do I live my life without my son
I have spent the most important years
of my life taking care of my son now
where will I be without my loving son
I have never thought of a life without
him in it and do not see myself having
a life without him
Thirty minutes is a lifetime to me
To see his room without him in it
to see the driveway empty of his car
is more than I can bear how oh how
will I go no without my son
My perfect son
                                 Love, Mom
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by lady67, Jun 24, 2008
That is so special Sandee.  I am so happy for you/ yet sad at the same time.  My daughter is only 16, but will be a senior in high school next year, and all she can talk about is leaving for college.  It breaks my heart, but I know that I am going to have to let go.  We just have to remember that we raised good children and they are able to make their own decisions now.  

I too am proud of my daughter.  She is currently ranked 3rd in her class of 650+seniors.  She has a grade point aveage of 4.3 and is planning to major in Engineering.  Her boyfriend is in the Marines and plans to be a nurse practioner when he gets out.  She is the Jr, Miss for 2009 in our hometown and will competing in the state pageant in a couple of weeks.  She also just returned from a 10 day mission trip to Mexico where she and 14 other kids at our church went and volunteered to build orphanages.  In an age when so many children are going a wry, it is wonderful to have children that we can be so proud of.  I didn't mean to steal your thunder, but it is always so good when we are able to tell others about how wonderful our children are doing.

Hug your son and tell him everyday how much you love him and how proud of him you are.

Friends Always
Susan  

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by dominosarah, Jun 24, 2008
This is one of the hardest parts of being a parent.  We raise them to be responsible adults but dont want them to ever leave.  The time does come and they want to explore on their own.  It will feel like you are leaving your newborn at his first place but they are so excited to have their own place and space.  You will feel better in time and the phone will be ringing off the wall until he says mom,you dont have to call every 5 minutes!!!!  You will soon see how really wonderful he is as he sets out on his new journey and does well.  The 30 minutes away seems like 3 million but believe me you will figure out a route to get there in 25 minutes!!!!!  Be proud of the fact you have raised a very responsible young man who will make a difference in this world.  Time to let him spread his wings. He will come home, maybe bring his laundry and want to eat a good home cooked meal.  My kids still like that.  Hang in there.  It will get better with time.                   sara

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by 10356, Jun 24, 2008
Hello Sandee
Your Journal bought tear's to my eye's.. My Son who is 22 just moved away 2 day's after Christmas.. I live in Ca and he moved to Virgina. Ben and his fiance both had jobs lined up at Meade corp. The telescope Co. Full time with medical dental and retirement the Co. will also pay for their college it was an opportunity they could not pass up.
I will never forget the night they told his dad and I, I could not breath tears sprang to my eye's and they would not stop flowing my stomach hurt.. I was heart broken. I remember thinking I can not do this I thought I would die of a broken heart. He also is a wonderful young man drug free smoke free alcohol free he has never even cussed in front of me. But I new I had to let him go. It is still very hard when he calls I sometimes cry, I miss him so much..
you will find the next day always arrives and with time it will be a little easier and you will take joy in his happiness and accomplishments Every time you see him it will be that much better and the hugs you will get every time you see each other will hold you till the next one. I cannot wait for the next one..
I wanted to let you know I feel your pain and understand it completely.. I'm sorry I have no words of wisdom as I myself em trying to find my way...Lesa  

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by soreadytodetox, Jun 24, 2008
hey sandee it been a while since ive got to chat with you been helping a friend who o/d a couple of weeks back on opainasshe doing as well as can be expected and i moved her in with me today plus im37 days clean of the snorting percs!!!!!! boy i sure know how you feel about our children my daughter is 25 and is well we are best friends. i know what you are going through shannon left home her freshman year of highschool to attend duke for teaching fellowship, i ythought i was going to cry my self to death. i missed her so bad! it had always been me & her together but the day came that i had tobe glad and sad at the same time. he sounds like a vantasic young man i wish him all the best. you be strong hes not to far away mom! you can email,write,call you know. i just wanted to touch in with you ive been really busy helping my girlfriend its going to be a long rode for her. ok sandee take care a lets keep in touch   sincerly sherri

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by sandee1818, Jun 24, 2008
Thank you all so much, your support and kind words mean a lot to me!

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