Dec 18, 2009
How am I NOT to be scared right now. Im on 1/8th a pill a day which means 1 pill now lasts me over a week compaired to 2 days before. I can feel the withdrawals this time of morning and its miserable. How am I going to jump? I want to be off. I want to be done so bad but thats not good enough. I have to "want" it. How much more can I want this? Im scared. I have no one who understands. My bestfriend nor my husband know and Id like to keep it that way. This is just so aweful. I get so upset knowing my dr has willingly kept me on this for over a year for an addiction that really wasnt all that bad! I still am kicking myself in the *** for letting myself myself prolong this for over a year when I could have been a year clean by now!
so drained :(
Who knew this is who I would turn out to be