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It just really truly donned on me

Dec 19, 2009 - 0 comments
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christmas

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growing up

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years passed

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christmas shopping

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presents

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loud

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perfume

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stupid smelly people

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Migraines

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beef jerky

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Mall

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Coach

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mom

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MONEY

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booties

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Chest Pain

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kohl's

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clothes

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crying women

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guilt

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pet store

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invertebrates

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steve

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gumby

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dog toys

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ferret treats

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ECE

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baby ferrets

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toy story

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pizza

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Temperature

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fireplace

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chicago keychain

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car keys

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tator

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hammie

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green poop

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watery eyes

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sneezing

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hairballs

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Fast Eating

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hydration levels



It's the twentieth. Christmas is so close, and I realize when I thought that I was not filled with joy and excitment, I just got scared. It's been a really long year, and then again, it passed by before my eyes. I'm growing up so quickly, and I'm scared. This is another year over and put away in a box. It just happens.

I went christmas shopping today. I had some health issues, you know? So many people and voices and noise and light- oh, not to mention every lady wearing the a different bottle (the whole bottle) of perfume. I couldn't breathe, I mean, my nose was running because of it. Luckily I was not plagued all day. Everywhere was very busy, but the mall was the worst. We grabbed beef jerky and I walked through the Coach store, my mom of course walked by as I left. So much for the surprise, you know? Though of course I'd need to come up with some money, because they're just so damn expensive and I want to get her something she'll love and use, something for everyday. I'll find something. I still have her booties for her, afterall. Standing in those crowded stores, my heart was hurting. Maybe it is an anxiety thing. Once it was in the center of my chest, and then once it was under my left boob, exactly where my heart beats. Who the hell knows anymore. We went to Kohl's and I got some clothes- much needed fitting jeans, and I found a flannel shirt. Aren't I stylish. I saw a women crying- but it didn't click under I'd already asked if she was waiting in line? I felt horrible, but I wasn't sure what to say. She laughed a bit, but she just looked so sad. I wish I'de asked what was wrong. I really do.
We went to the pet store and I greeted every four legged animal I came across. I love em too much. We picked out some ferret treats for christmas, and I found steve a gumby dog toy. He will love it. Now I'm a little paranoid I picked something up from the ferrets there at the store, but they weren't sick, but they were a lot younger than my ferrets, but they seemed healthy, but there were so many maybe they weren't, but they were well taken care of and smelled healthy, ok sure but it could still happen, yes you're right, I know I am. We also got a gift certificate for steve's parents for dinner. I hope they'll like it. I got home and ate pizza and steve came over, we watched toy story and talked. The temp in my house is so skewed. My room? The temp drops. The side room? Another 5 degree drop. The living room? Inhabited by the fireplace, it was so warm I couldn't breathe correctly.

I put a chicago keychain on my keys. I'm so funny.



Tator threw up. I'm afraid he has ECE, his poop is green, he has watery eyes, and he's been sneezing recently. They both have, but Hammie hasn't been gagging yet. Maybe it's just hairballs, maybe he just ate too fast. Who knows. I'm watching them and checking their hydration levels. It's so late.



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