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My Experience of Oxycontin Withdrawal

Dec 27, 2009 - 5 comments
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I have been tossing around the ideal to stop using/abusing oxycontin for quite some time now, and have decided that it is time. I have read thru numerous entries here and must say I am scared as H*** of what I am about to experience.  I have been using for almosst 3 years now. I am married and have 2 beautifull boys who have turned 3 and 5 this month.  My husband has a rare degenerative neuromuscular disease. He is perscribed oxy 80's 3x a day and roxy 30mg  every 4-6hrs (max 5 daily).  This is how my addiction began... We lived in Virginia when he was initially perscribed oxy 20mg, and I was freaked out, his doctor talked with me and told me I had nothing to worry about so long as they were not abused. It worked out well, he did not abuse them and they were a great source of extra income seeing how my hubby is disabled and unable to work social security can only go so far and our life was wonderfull! All I used at that point was marijuna.  Well about a year later we moved to Indiana, and was introduced to a group of people to get pot, and in turn we sold them oxys and of course they became our "best friends".  Thier preference for using was snorting them and eventually they had my hubby doing that, and before too long with the peer pressure and wanting to fit in I began doing them as well. I used to think it was funny to see how people were addicted and would do anything for these pills, and could never understand why until I started using. In the begening it was great, I loved the energy and "happiness" I would feel. As the years passed it took more and more to reach that level of happiness until there was no energy or happiness it was just to get out of bed and go to work and care for my children. I would love to go to an inpatient rehab but I have no insurance becuz i was recently fired from my job because I was given a drug screen that showed oxycodone and was fired. My life has been on a downward spiral since I began using and I believe that I am at rock bottom. I tried to go the saboxone route but with my hubby still abusing them and due my lack of will I was fired from the program because I did not want to stop using. Anyway, tonight is my last night on oxycontin, and I plan to go cold turkey as of tommorrow morning and I am hoping that I will obtain some support and give someone the urge to quit themselves. Even on the pills nothing is getting done, i practically ignore my boys and they behave like maniacs because of this and it is time to save myself before I destroy my family because that is what is happening at this moment... I plan to eat a good dinner and take a nice hot shower tonight because I know that after tonight for only God knows how long I will not be able to do anything until I can get myself together. I am hoping that i will be able to record day to day my experience with quiting and hope that with helping myself I can help someone else too by doing so.  I have my multivitamins and nausea meds and blood pressure meds that was given as a means to help with the withdrawal about 6months ago. I also have some xanax so that hopefully I will be able to sleep through most of this.  I feel like such a loser for getting myself into this situation and bringin my familly down to the level we are at and I figure since i have no job, no car and no money that it is the perfect time to quit and regain control over my life. I just hope that my children will not have to see the really bad parts of the withdrawal process.  I love them and my husband so much and cannot bear to hurt them any longer with my own selfish needs.  My hubby has promised to stop snorting them and to only take them as perscribed, well actually less than perscribed because their are only x amount until his refill. They don't last long between the 2 of us. I know it will be hard knowing that they are right there for me to get but I will pray to God that I will stay away from them and have told my husband that no matter what not to let me have any more of them. tonight i feel fine but i know how fast that can change because we have ran oout before and I am not looking forward to my jumpy legs and sleepless nights but if theres going to be a change only I can make it happen, so wish me luck and keep me in your prayers and I will write again tom. and try and give details to my experience to all who wish to read!

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by Keepstrong27, Dec 28, 2009
Wow your story sounds a little like mine but not married and one kid. I wish you the best of luck and god bless you. I'm 33 days clean comming off 120 m of oc a day. This is my last relapse hopefully I've tried two other times in the last three years was clean for a good eight months but started to do them again I just wanted to have that superman feeling again. I've been on them for a year again just for the HIGH even know it's not so great any more I decided to quit sick of being sick of being sick. I got suboxine of the street well from a friend did it for two weeks read up on it did it the right way by tapering off correctly. Suboxine is an opiate blocker wich blocks the receptors in your brain from needing opiates to feel better. Suboxine is a great maintenance drug to use but should only be used for short period of time because it can also be addicting and cause serious emotional spells and numbness in the limbs. I have been taking motrin/ ib 800 for aches and headaches, tums for upset stomach and acid indigestion , and for sleeping nyquil nighttime or any generic nighttime flu medicine. I recomend water throughout the day to cleanse your body and when you do wake up eat breakfast it's hard but your body needs that first bit of nutrition to get going. I'm 27 male mass and it ***** to detox up here when it's so cold 10 degree days but I can say it was a hard first three weeks but every day it gets better and better 33 days clean.  


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by JAHC2, Feb 24, 2010
I also have told my story on the comments below David's story on this website. I wish you the best because I am two weeks clean off from 80 mg to 240 mg on a daily basis and sicker I could have ever imagined I would be. But I am continuing to be strong and get through because it is consuming my life. You might want to check out the other journal entries where my story is, there is a lot of ppl that are 6 months to a year to 5 years cleans that can really encourage you when you think you are at your lowest and at you breaking point.

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by Help2otherside, May 02, 2012
Hi everyone! I am a 33yr old female, engaged w one child. I've been taking 6-7 30mg oxy and 30mg morphine 3x's a day for approx 1.5yrs for facial nerve disorder. But my need to tk these medz for solely medical reasons is being outweighed by the need to get "high". This is causing me to lose everything that is good in my life:( I have no $, no happiness, no energy, no LIFE! The medz have changed me into a person I could have never imagined I'd become and it's sad. I am planning to go cold turkey this Monday and I am scared to death of the wd process. I could us any and all help and support anyone has to offer to help me reach the other side! Thank u to anyone listening and hope to hear back very soon. Becuz I don't wanna psych myself out n not go thru w what is needed to get my life back!

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by Rebequitay2boys, May 23, 2012
Your stories are all just like mine. In so happy I found this forum. I'm 39, single mon to 2 boys. 12 norcs a day or 120 mg oxy or a mi of both, whatever I can afford, for the past year 1/2. I have to stop. It's taken over my life & I have no money. Was Lao off 2 Months ago & just started a new full time job last monday & been housecleaning nights & weekends just to get money for pills. Somehow I've managed to spend $200-$500/wk on pills, makes me sick!!! No food & no gas but I manage to get $$ & buy the pills. It started for chronic back pain. I'm prescribe 30 soma & 30 vicodine every month but my dr ***** at refilling so I found a dealer & it all went downhill from there. Keep making excuses, can't stop now cause I just started the new job & can't have WD's. Need the pills for energy to get the housecleaning done & just get up & function in the morning. I want suboxone but of course my dealer won't get them for me. I feel helpless, ashamed, & scared. Thank you all for your stories & please keep updating. I'm so happy to know I'm not alone. So far today I've done really good, only 1/4 80 oxy 2 somas & 4 norcos in the last 6 hours (really for me that's good!) but it's only 1pm & when I get off work at 5pm I go strait to a housecleaning job 6-10pm or longer....will make a trip to my dealer for an 80 oxy but my goal is to start taking less & less as cold turkey is not an option. I even clean houses on weekends. Thanks everyone for just letting me get this out for the 1st time ever. Didn't mean to write so much! But feel better & less alone already!

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by Rebequitay2boys, May 23, 2012
And sorry for all the typos. Nervous just writing this sitting in my car on my lunch break from my cell phone so not paying attention to my spelling/typos, sorry!

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