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Dec 28 2009  Something new

Dec 28, 2009 - 6 comments
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I am trying something different today. Thought maybe helping others in this forum would make me feel more useful. I learned right away that no one listens to anyone here either. They just want to feel superior about quitting a pathetic little habit. Most of them have been taking lortab or percocet a few months and are giving advice to cold turkey to people who have been snorting several oxicontin 80s every day for several years. Depression is a serious problem for real addicts and I mention trying whey protein and got no takers again. I am certain it is the only reason I had such a speedy recovery but others only want to take another pill for the depression. What ever i guess. Learned something of Tramadol on this site. Never thought of it a addictive at all but someone found some detailed information about it. Surprised me. I know that after many failed attempts to quit that the porgram that I am on will work and would love to share it. This bunch of kids getting high for fun has no idea what real addiction is. Unfortunatly i do and it scares me to think there are people suffering, coming to this forum for help and finding a bunch of kids cheering them on to cold turkey. For a few this will result in certain death. One snotty little punk had the nerve to say I wasn't tapering when I had gone from 6 oxy 80s a day to 20 mg of methadone. 40 mg s on the days I had to do things. Pretty quick to have all the answers. wonder where they will be in a few years. I am sure they won't make it. Not with an attitude like that. No Compassion. Some even think the depression is nothing to battle. This also tells me they haven't been at it long. Good for them I hope they never get to the point I did but its a lonely world when a bunch of lightweight kids think they are going to help a hard core addict. Pushing me to the edge. They talk like they think its cool to be addicted. They haven't really been there. hope they don't have to. Do wish they would try to be comapssionate to their fellow man. Ask a few questions before giving stupid advice they know nothing about. I know now I am old when I am saying "KIDS NOWADAYS" ha ha. I feel pretty stupid to think I might find friends here but I think I will try out the journal and the tracker thing if I can figure it out. I will just steer clear of the open forum so as not to let the little lightweights hurt me. Its hard enough finding myself and a new life. Sure don't need to dodge punches from stupid kids that "think" they are addicts because they think its cool. If they understood anything at all they would know that addicts are sensitive that is a big reason they have hunted a substance to numb them. when going through w/d you get way sensitive. When you stablize you still feel more than the average person. I'm going to go ahead and make this visible to everyone. After all, its how I feel right now. Doubt anyone cares about being nice to anyone. Feels good to vent a little. I'm new to this forum **** and thought you were supposed to give your experience.  

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by joeyneedsyoutohelpme, Dec 28, 2009
Well said foggy! What you have said to me HAS made a difference! Do Not Stop!!! I need you! Day two tomorrow. I cannot believe it after so many years. I feel like walking crap. I know where some pills are. picked up the phone 100 times but never dialed. Thank You! Thank you for your inspiration. I am almost 40. Been an addict forever. Hardcore? Me? The worst. I watched a video Christmas day of me. 25 years old and another person i use to be before all this started. I want my life back. I am going to tough it out and go to work tomorrow. Construction. Cold outside and hard as hell. Thanks for helping me to take on the challenge. I am going to plow through the withdrawal. Joey

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by pharma9, Dec 28, 2009
I understand your frustration,but everyone who posts on this forum is asking for help or willing to give help in their own way.Each problem is unique to the person who has it,altho we all share the same hurts,frustrations,fears and anger and disappointment.When one of us is successful in our efforts to stop the drugs we try to share our successes and cheer on others to do so as well.We are not here to judge or rate our problems for to each of us they are enormous and sometimes feel unsurmountable.But with the help of posters here many have been able to get thru the deepest and darkest times of their lives.I wish you the best in your healing and keep posting in the most suitable manner for you.You are as important as anyone else here.

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by pharma9, Dec 28, 2009
PS I think the whey protein is an excellent way to provide the nutrients to our brains.Our neurotransmitters are produced from protein and I agree that it a great and natural way to supply our brains with necessary nutrients during healing.

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by jlb191, Jan 13, 2010
Hey, just wanted to let you know that i had never read this until now.  Today i emailed you (before reading this) wanting advice about some supplements and so on.  What you are doing and saying is getting through to some of us, including me.  I am by no means experienced so i don't give much advice, but i do appreciate that of those who have lived and learned and are there to help us through this. Take care.  

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by justaboutclean, Dec 14, 2012
damn right you are,but dont get pissed off by a bunch of kids you know better than that.thanx for pouring out your feelings though.

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by justaboutclean, Dec 14, 2012
is there anyone in this forum right now??


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