But it was a good day, in my book. My class was cutting pineapples, but my group was fighting a pork loin. Haha. Wouldn't have been too bad but for this girl I don't like being a jerk and taking every simple task and pawning all the difficult tasks on other people. And I felt pretty cool when the other girl leaned over to me and said "Don't let her boss you around." Maybe it wasn't significant, but I felt better. Even just knowing I wasn't the only one who things she's an *******. I enjoyed eating the pineapple though. I lost my nice loop earring, and I have no idea when. May have been the night before, at Steve's house. Or while I was sleeping at home. Or that morning. Could be anywhere. I really liked that earring. They were very pretty. Humph.
I wrote a lot today. I have a lot to say, and not a lot to see, recently. I always wonder what's related to depression and what isn't. Maybe I DO write and read more when I'm feeling better and I'm more visual when I'm depressed. Maybe. That would be funny. But either way, I feel like nothing is getting me down. Even argueing with other people, I don't even feel angry. I feel the weight of it, but I can smile.
I'm having trouble breathing. It feels liek my noseholes are just too small and I can't get a full breathe in. It's wigging me out a little. Maybe it's also my lungs, since opening my mouth doesn't feel like it's making a difference. Maybe I'm just imagining it. That's a scary thought.
We had money to spend at Piercing Pagoda- we traded Memere's earrings and I got some spikes and an owl. It's hard to explain.
I added a new baby to the family tonight. I have Tatortot and Hammie, and Pippie, and Murphy, and Phoebe! My gecko! She's a beautiful little crested gecko. She has no tail- just a stub. And so she looks a little unbalanced. It's strange, to havea cold animal. I'm all nervous about the heat lamp and everything. I can't just toss a blanket in or trust she'd curl up and be ok- if I turn the light off she may freeze, if I leave it on she may fry. It's all temp. and I don't know how cold it gets overnight. I need to test it tonight but there's so much at stake! I like to just watch her crawl around and I'm trying to get used to those creepy bugs. Eeepp! I really like her. My only little girl. I'm afraid someone will eat her. I'm sorry I have more to say, but I need to go up to worry more about her.