Marlboro Stae Hospital

Marlboro State Hospital 1977
age 18
I was taken by ambulance to JSMC where I tried to escape admission by running across the parking lots with foam slippers and signing in with obscenity's.
From there at night I was taken by ambulance to MPH.
On the way with the lights going they asked me if I had any last requests, I remembered the mercury poisoning in the lakes north of here and told them all the useful things to do with mercury like thermometers and electronic thermo-switches.
As I was bought into the car port they had me stripped and showered and took all m y belongings for state issued hospital wear. They interviewed me and gave me some pills.
I don't remember why I was there but did not answer up to drug or drinking inquiries from the male nurse.
I was placed in a room with around fifty people who were all waiting to see the doctor most of them in hospital gowns and a few of them showing all.
There was a black and white tv playing bugs bunny cartoons tom and jerry and stuff during the day time they played soap operas.
I was taken to a dorm at night time after half choking to death from side effects on the telephone while begging to come home to Moms.They gave me a shot to stop the reactions and put me in a dorm with just the men who were mostly older than I.
I slept on a cot and was awoken at six am for more drugs showers and breakfast. The usual powdered eggs thick bacon and cold warped toast.
That evening I was taken to see the doctor who asked me allot of questions like the foreigner he was did not know who was the president what day it was time or year?
While he was talking some women outside his window caught my attention flirting with me they said we could do it tomorrow. As a fact he asked if I heard voices referring to the girls outside I said yes.
They told me in the morning I would be transferred to a cottage . I pictured a little cabin or bungalow in the Forrest with plants and acoustic guitars and went to sleep.
The next morning after our routine they walked me down a long side walk to Monmouth County Mens Cottage 11. Along the way there were folks playing ball and sitting on benches .
We got there and went inside a large building resembling an English university size room with checker board floors and pool tables and a fire place with big rubber chairs all around with chrome handles.
In the front were two offices and they began a chart on me saying I partied too much and would have to stop or I would be there forever. Across the lawn in the morning people did calisthenics on the lawn each morning I would try to join in but they would chase me away saying I was sick.
I did not feel sick not the usual way but it was scary there and the people looked dangerous.
Some of them would hurt themselves on purpose others would scream day and night and allot of them were smoking and doing favors to get more cigarettes or extra coffee, both of which I did not like much.
After going into a room at night with a soggy bed bed wetters were escorted to the bathroom with dirty draws every night around ten. I got visits from my girlfriend and my friends from Freehold they brought me things and my mother would talk to the staff about how weird I was liking music like Frank Zappa or Wildman Fisher and tell them how much I loved to play chess.
After meeting Dr Keycig I was told he knew I smoked pot and offered to keep me high if I gave it up he also gave me prescriptions for Stelazine Thorazine Prolixin and other injectable major tranquilizers and also a hypnotic called senequan, tremin and cogentin.
I could not sleep with my feet twitching at nigh and nurse Holland would give me a shot to help me sleep.
I went around with my clothes off to the pond to go skinny dipping during the day and get away from the nuts. A group of student nurses walked by as I rose from the pond nude. They thanked me for my display of the male anatomy.
Most of my cell mates went out to a bar the 520 bar at night I would not go and went to bed early at first.
After seven days of working on my mother she agreed to take me back in I had not lived with her in almost a year by then. I went to court where they explained the hospital had to prove they could help me or let me go and had a grand mall seizure on the floor from the shots. They ran in as the judge exclaimed and hollered at the Doctor look what you did to this poor boy and they gave me another needle of cogentin in the butt.
I was released to my mothers custody.
A month later after fighting about my medicines with the Red Bank Clining on River Plaza And staying away from they CPC on Court street I was working at Great Adventure and Fire and bar hopping when some one slipped me something. I ran from roof top to roof top firing an imaginary stick gun at the cops below climbing the bill boards over top the building downtown and running through back yards while playing army, I hid in the garage and the police and ambulance came in with flashlights and guns to flush me out for another visit to MPH>Age18
My girlfriend and I were ending it after she tried some of my pills and her neck got stiff admission two was in Cottage 11 also. Except the made me go take a schedule and I complained about the bed wetters and was place with the lifers. Who one at a time I got all there stories I got to see most of the folks were still there and gravitated towards another hippie looking guy like me to play Frisbee allot. I took green house and made some baskets and took music and banged some synthesizer and took gym and learned the speed bag basketball and played piano frequented pork chop hill and fell in love with Bridget Bardoe her real name was mary joe bruwer but she was a prostitute and the preacher would not marry us.I was gullible and learned to steal what I needed with a master key I got addicted to cigarettes and coffee with lots of sugar and went to AA once a week. We went on Bus rides and I was caught in downtown Freehold after escaping the staff used to take me out to the club at night overseeing dope deals. I was a good straight man and figured with my fathers influence and the high school mates who now worked there I would not get into trouble. Month later I was discharged by mr Learner a social worker to The Asbury Carlton Hotel In Asbury Park and save up enough for a Beach badge.
6 moth later I was taken back into jail for obscene ludeness and resisting arrees in Freehold Twp. I got into a fight with a patrol man while looking for some one at StoneHurst apts . Here Name was Helen Skaffitti and worked with us on the parade. She wanted the steps for the grandstands and Only I knew where I put them but I could not barter a deal to get out with them steps.
I went to the holding tank covered in maze I was taken to court to see a deaf woman and a broken cop. I was in the holding tank when I decide to go down the hall and take a shower with out permission when the cell door was unlocked . I got humped into my cell and was moved with out apparel to Isolation in Civil II with a big dog growling out my cell I was taken to a priest )NO HELP) I was taken to Debalsy my old pal from tennis at JSMC where I had played and rapped bandages at future house he gave me senequan to sleep I flushed allot of things down the toilet like pills food and saw my mother very upset. A week of torment in my head went by and signed the paper to commit myself to MPH.
I was transferred and soon after I was sentenced to 6 months for disorderly charges or something.
I fought with the violent I lusted the girls I worked on a tractor in Freehold twp I overdosed over and over. And Often saved up my pills to do it. I made $900 working on threat farm and went into a six week rehab called atlas I signed up for any ginney pig treatment they had I went to DAC and Pathways while in gateway house awaiting to be discharged, I wound up in Mens II to die twice I went to ITU for fighting with staff allot took place in six moths but I fell in love with another working girlfriend.
I was discharged after going to see more then one place by Dr Nadis to The Carters boarding home first of sixteen more.
I was brought in the next time and escaped Riverview's oppressive punishment for a motel in Sea Bright that makes four we are half way to now.


Admission#3 was under a detainer and although the wood shop taught me allot the fact that folks were dieing and committing suicided was always wondering what happened to the old people from mens II when they died. I thought sometime we were eating them.

Admission # five age 22
I had just lost my case to raise my own baby I fought with a minor at Monmouth medical where I was being detained for extreme jealousy.
The Gyn Had offer me shock treatments to get over the court decision but I turned them down he said one incident from you and your going to MPH.
Thats how I got there the put me in admissions cottage O. allot of the hospital was coed by then and many of the old amenities were gone like the green house the wood shop the pool tables and the dining room in the service building was sectioned off and they had instituted a level system.
I performed a wedding in the Admissions building one day and I hear the couple got out and moved to Florida together.
I signed up for rehab in cottage 17 in order to get with a woman I kinda fancied but she was a marine and only like alpha males.. While in rehab I kept a diary and signed up for another try at ridge lane where i had done three months prior.
Ridge Lane was nice we had to cook our own meals do our own laundry and go to aa each and every night almost . I may have got this out of order a bit.
But...........
In Cottage 17 they were strict they urine tested us every time they left the building. I was always loosing privileges for pulling pranks at first but the judge said I had to complete that program and ended up in school again each night I went to building classes at the Monmouth county career school in freehold by bus and came back and peed and started my time as the chairman of a meeting or going to meditation or getting treated for something else.
By the time I got out I was on 8 medicines and had a long constantly changing diagnosis it went from combative to undifferentiated type of schizophrenia and the like. I had beaten a worked senseless for not allowing me a walk and got thirty days for fighting and I had worked over a social worker at Riverview who is in charge of Medicaid funding now. I was getting the reputation as a scrapper.
I had had numerous hospitalizations in private hospitals and often had no where to go after spending all my money I was on the streets in a car or park awaiting the welfare office to auction my *** off somewhere else. I had turned to prostitution and worked the money into promises of homes and cars. So no matter what Atlas cottage 17 was not going to break my spirit of legal liberty's.
Noe the less I worked hard for five years as a Technion in a union after did not drink till my stepfather died and wound up in crisis and on the run from treatment for a year and a half I was 33 years old when the put me in Monmouth and escaping getting caught into freehold and punching a doctor and back in MPH not knowing if I was animal mineral or vegetable going to court after thirty days to buy back a new apartment with the money I had save and thanking my father for getting me out of there. I did not sign anything mess with the women or volunteer and mph closed down a couple years later I was on the 450 plan. And had spent over two year of my life in an institution and 8 admissions often very defiant.