It's strange but...

I've been a Type I Diabetic for 37+ years, and maybe it's the fact that I've always had it, but I just don't fear anything surrounding it that much. Yes, I've been hospitalized for being stupid about it (college) and have had a couple of near misses with it in the past few years on low sugars, but it's a constant fact in my life, almost a reassurement that I have to take care of it every day.

This feeling I have right now, the uncertainty and fear, must then be purely because of fear of the unknowm. On the one hand, if (when) I get a call today (please today) and I don't have BC, then I can take a deep breath, and know to get checked every year and to be more diligent about reporting findings in the future. On the other hand, if I get a call today and I do have BC, then I can start moving forward with treatment.

My heart goes out to all of the others in this forum who are feeling the stress associated with not knowing. We will get through this, somehow, and we can get through this together.