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When I get my plans

Jan 26, 2010 - 0 comments
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changing plans

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Anxiety

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unplanned changes

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new people

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replacing

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classes

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Crying

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special ed

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guidence

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sculpture

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culinary final

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differnet final standards

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devra

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buspar

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racing thoughts

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calming down

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mom

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shopping

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Mall

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Hot Topic

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coupons

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biows and jewlery

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YAP

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typos



In my head, it's your best option not to change them. I don't adapt well to change, and everyone knows that. I think things over too much. And I get set that this is how things are going to be, and I am ready and prepared for it.  When things don't happen like I intend them to I get upset. It's not like I set out in the morning saying that I hate eeveryone and I need to get my way  or I'll be very mad. I mean, I had a feeling I wasn't going to get my class changed today. Still I was heartbroken and in tears when I got to that class and had a essay due the next day. I wasn't prepared and I didn't know how to cope. I tried my hardest and still I cried. We went to lunch, and I jutst didn;t come back to class. I went to special ed, and then to guidence. I was able to change the class. I felt very diffiuclt for taking time out of everyone's day, but I was kindof feeling ridiuculous myself.  I didn't know what to do. I can't have new teachers when I don't see it coming.  I was set for english, I have the same teachers for voc and algebra, but crim? No.  So I'm taking sculpture instead.I'm no artist, but I think I can manage.  Ha.

I took my culinary final and it was kinda difficult. If I didn't  read over m ystudyguice on the way there I would not have passed. Actually I stil may not have. I was a bit ******** that their finals were 20 questions long and ours were no less than 100. Why is that? Why do that to us? Honestly, it never occured to me any one had different finals.  Oh well though, it's done with.  I got a B in bio, an A+ in History, and a D in Spnanish.I can live with that.

I went to see Devra and I'm going to start Buspar in a bit . I'm not sure how I feel about it, I just need the physical anxietys to stop and to let my mind stoprunning. I really need to calm down. I'm just going to lose my mind.

My mom brought me to the mall to use our 15% off coupons at Hot tTopic. Unfortunately, we both forgot them. I thought it was a bit funny, till I found some things I was pretty keen on getting. I ended up getting 60 dollar pants for 23 dollars. They're a bit too big, but no way was I stuffing this *** into a 0.  I also got some pretty fancy bows, and a very pretty necklace. I will not be rocking all these things on one day.  I need to hem my pants.  I need to read the Scarlet Letter. I need to hope I got more friends in lunch 1 than I did in lunch 2.  It will be a miserable year if I don't. I need to...enjoy life.

I have YAP tomarrow.  I don't know why I'm so anxious about it.

And I apolygze for the typos- my computer is running very slwo and the words are slow to pop up and I'm in a large hurry to get to bed. Goodnight,

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