slept 4 hours

Sleep

Well, after the seroquel did not work, I remembered a medication(Etrafon) I used to take for depression, along with paxil. (I had weaned myself off of both of them about 2 years ago).

I believe my system cannot sleep on its own, after having that med for 3 years. I do hate to take those kinds of meds. They mess with your memory, among other things.

50-60 years ago, people did not have these meds to use when they got depressed. They dealt with it, and moved on. My grandmother had a very hard life, yet she never did take any of these meds and she is one of the strongest persons I know.

I wish I had been strong enough to deal with all my issues and used faith in God, instead of relying on a pill to get me through. I'm aggrevated at myself, and wondering about the damage that I did. Why am I always so hard on myself? oh yeah, its that type a personality.

I will just be glad I had some sleep, but wish it were natural. Oh well, can't have everything.