I went today, and my comp is still being silly slow. Ugh.
No A block, I went in late, someone was in my parking spot. Learned some math, things I've never know beofre. Maybe I will even do my homework for the first time ever. Prolly not. I was in Spulpture, we started a project. But I got into my crim classs. It f3eels bit surreal at this moment, like I don't want to celebrate after it's gone wrong so much already. But tomarrow I'm in the new class. I think I'll go to art club because I kinda wanted to see how my project went. We read in enlighs and whatnot.
I went to YAP and I was feeling a bit down in general, I can't really tell you why. I don't know what'swrong. I drove home and tried to prepare for tomarrow before rushing to YAP and I argued with everything. I also found out I havea passive personality. As if I didn't know that. It was ammusing though, to see how no one else could pinpoint what I got. I felt a little mysterious, because clearly I am passive, but then again I have a lot of aggressive traits, and passive-aggrssive motives. I sealed the deal during check in when I shared that I had a temper tantrum to get what I wanted today. Didn't know it would be so relivent. I tried to participate and stuff, I feel kindor misplaced though. I run my mouth when I'm uncomfortable and I feel silly and I mess things up but the longer it goes the more I do it. I'm shaking. I've been shaking for days. Weeks. I don't know.
I drove home with Shei and I couldn't seem to talk. I had nearly no opinion, I didn't feel human. I felt sad and displaced. I still don't know why though. Maybe necasue of how I'm confused about how things are happening right now. but I assured her many times nothing was wrong. I didnt have an answer either way. I didn't know wahat was wrong. Then I got to steve's house and realized that I couldn't stop talking about how upset I was and how much it was bothering ,e that I couldn't understand what was going on presently. Or ever. And I couldn't enterprit signs and she clearly does not like me. We had fun and went back to my house and he played skate. My eye was red. I became quiet. Must be something about the day, or something I've gotten stuck on again? Something, some characteristic that's stuck ion my head and I don't nknow how to comprehend it.? I do not know.
I wore my new pants today, and one of my bows. I look adorable and they're comfy. Sweet deal.