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TORNADO

Jul 05, 2008 06:45PM - 3 comments

I feel like I have a tornado within me, but I really don't have the power of one.   I am the debris that is swirling around with-in it and getting thrown many miles away. OUCH! I am sooo damaged now!  
My mind is screaming out & looking for my old self.                          
                                            
My old self is screaming, " I'M HERE    I'M RIGHT HERE  Why can't you see me?'

Who is that walking with those stiff legs? OH IT'S ME!  I look so different!  What happened to my friendly smile, it's gone?!  


                                                                                                   Where is my old self, will I ever be her again?

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by Dee52, Jul 19, 2008 12:22AM
I think a lot of us feels this way...we just want it to be like we use to feel. ALIVE  
We just have to trust on God and our family to help us.  God will never leave or forsake us.
My prayers are with you and I pray you will feel better and that God will send you to the right dr to help
get your self back once again.  The hardest thing is smiling through the pain...I do that a lot because I try to
protect my family.  In the end it only hurts you if your  not honest with them.
Take care of yourself...maybe a storm chase is what you need.(giggles)
Dee

by idesofmarch, Jul 19, 2008 09:06AM
Oh how my husband would love that.  We are going to see his Mom today-it is a 75 min. car ride there, then we usually ride her around just to get out, then another 75 min. ride home.  There may be thunderstorms here and there this afternoon.  Hubby will like that if we happen to be out in them.  I don't like car rides anymore, can't get or stay comfortable. I can't lay down and still wear the seat belt correctly.  I do feel better today though, less of a tornado in me.  hehe I did paint a tornado onto the backdrop of our train layout (as a joke) and wrote up a newspaper article about it for my husband to find nearby.  He had a friend coming over and it was a perfect joke. we had a good laugh.  I will have to paint a normal sky scene over it later though.  So how are you doing?  Have you had any visiters lately?  I take it that your lap top is fixed.  If it hurts to  type you should look into a webcam which is less than $25.00.  Easy, just plug it in to the lap top and hook it to the top.  I'm thinking of getting one but I don't want to scare anyone with my bedhead and chubby face. I have the family jowls.  haha.  I've been thinking and praying for you and I will continue to.  Good Day , Sharon

by sandee1818, Jul 19, 2008 06:18PM
I have never heard of using a tornado as a symptom for pain but it works grat it does tell the severity of your pain:)
I hope your doing better , tomarrow always holds hope:)

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