Tears don't fall, they crash around me

I've yet to find anything funny today.. or smile. Well, I smiled, but was it true? I barely feel anything.. and well, I'm wondering if its all worth it. Why in the hell are we supposed to live if we're just going to die anyways? I pushed another one of my friends away. Another one. She doesn't want to leave me alone.  I want her to.  I'm not worth the trouble, I'm not worth the time. I've already got everything planned out, no one cares, so no one will miss me.. won't they be a perfect family when I'm gone? Sure, they'll cry for a while, but they'll be happier in the end I'm sure.

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