Thirty Days...

Thirty days ago I began the process in my reduction of Xanex, in which I was at 5 mg. per day. Tonight, it stands at 3 mg. per day. In these thirty days since I have begun with the forum and the resolution to becoming drug -free through tapering I have experienced stress situations, relationship break up, re-hiring of my previous job. In this first month I have never felt more alive than I do tonight, even with the ending of a three year relationship, I stayed the course and kept on...This evening was my first "boxing' workout in three years, and it was the first time I had the motivation to begin to return to my excercising again...baby steps in every turn and movement must be emphasized, for I know through support and encourgement of others, that this process is one with patience, time and being steady. I know there is so much inside me that someone will find and appreciate in time, but as I focus on myself, within myself, healing and changing each day, I know that what is the most important issue in my life is becoming addictive free.
Changes are happening in my life, I feel it within and surrounding me, positive changes and healing.
I know that the road I am traveling is still in front of me, but I want to be on the road, not on the side watching others...I want to walk this path. I pray and ask God that the next thirty days treat me kindly as possible, with mercy, and compassion.

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