the doctor visit

well i went last thursday for my first gyno appointment since the birth of my last child 6 years ago. i was sitting in the car and the sweats started and my stomach was in knots. i managed to pull myself out of the car and walk up to the door of the hospital and they had the revolving doors and i watched them for about 30 seconds and then made my way in. people were coming in and out and not paying any attention to the fear on my face. it was like i was in a bubble and i was watching life revolve around me. i finally came to and started towards the elevator. i got on the elevator and thier was about 7 people with me and i know they could hear my heart beating harder and harder the closer we got to the 6th floor. the doors opened and i slowy got off. i walked down the long hall and started to go back about 4 times but didnt. "i need to get checked out by a doctor" i told myself. i fianlly reached the office door and went in i could hardly answer the ?s from the secretary b/c i was so nervous. i sat out in the waiting area for about 5 minutes until the call finally came "terri" and my heart sank in fear of what i was fixing to go through. the fear tried to over come my strength but i made it through it.  i met the doctor and she was so nice and helpful the check up went great and i feel so much better and will go back every year for sure.