July 7, 2008

When I read the About Me in my profile I sound strong and confident. I am scared and tired of pretending that I am not scared. I have a slow growing cancer and I am in remission and I praise god for that! On the other side of the coin I feel like **** most days! The chemotherapy was a breeze but the treatments I get for low platelets make me sick. I try to be a good sport but I am sick of it! I realize that some people are in much worse shape but I just feel yucky and I want to scream stop already! I am hoping that keeping a journal will be the outlet I am looking for. It is so hard to work full time and care for 2 small children and take care of myself. I wish I could take 12 weeks off and be able to pay the bills and just take care of myself and kids! Thank you journal for letting me whine!