Jul 07, 2008
Day 18 Cold Turkey Withdrawal from Tramadol
(and various other as sundry nasty characters in the plot. Most of them with fake moustaches and outrageous accents! I think it was a melodrama and I was being toed to the railroad tracks when we last left our story ....)
Oh good see? The Strange is back and I'm waving my freak flag!
OK! Welcome back. Imodium A-D tablets have been discovered by me as the best thing since sliced bread. I thought it was just for the excessive diarrhea, but having spend the better part of yesterday and early this morning couched over a heating pad because of severe and constant abdominal cramping, I see the light and I have the tablets!
Been reading on the Internet about ... poor unsuspecting chronic pain patients who do not have any idea about Tramadol and they all think they are going crazy when they go into withdrawal.
One woman I was reading about, older than I, legitimate reasons to be on the drug, went into withdrawal and she was on the floor in the emergency room holding her head together with her hands, rocking back and forth saying to the Doctors ... I don't know where it hurts I can't tell you because I'm going crazy and I feel like a drug addict. (I felt like doing that constantly Days 1-4.)
They slammed her on methadone.
Imodium AD, I chewed up 4 tablets. I sublingual-ed (not a word) 2 B-12 tablets. Feeling halfway human.
Wish the visual symptoms would go away. Still very sensitive to light. Now again, can't take alot of stress. People are freaking me out a bit. Strangers mainly.
I'm not the slightest bit hungry and I am not the slightest bit thirsty. EVER. Not even a little bit. I'm sleeping thru the night only due to taking OTC and my anxiety medication. But it feels amazing because I haven't slept thru a night in ... YEARS.
No ice packs have been necessary today. Because there's no pain in my back or leg. I mean i can feel the muscles there, but they are not painful. They get painful at night. And the back seems to flare up but I am not having to strap an ice pack to my right leg.
Pre-Imodium I was starting to get pre-cravings for Tramadol. Not that I would use, but just the symptoms of withdrawal make your mind do crazy things. It only happened for a split second, but enough to make me reel in repulsion cause I now associate it with RAT poison. The mind is a strong thing; I use revulsion liberally
... I think controlling the physical symptoms with all means possible is WISE because the mind will start to tell you how quickly it can pull you out of pain if you just take a Tramadol. Or DOC.
But then you realize you are too far in to go back! And you are also wondering, yes, but how am I to get ahead when at the moment I can't really get out of the fetal position and my brain isn't working? I had to look up my Home Detox emails I had saved and re-read them to try and yank myself up. My mind had literally forgotten everything it needed to help. Freaky!
That's all for now.
Except; I want to complain that my TeeVee is broken! It POP-ed last night and now ... no TeeVee for me. Which is BAD because it's so much easier to watch mindless movies and zone out and fall asleep. Ok so; this too shall pass, I'll find someone to fix it or get a new one. Lord knows I'll be saving a ton o cash soon from not needing constant meds!
Love and healing,