Feb 11, 2010
So I decided that having a journal will help me in many ways- mostly to help alleviate my anxiety. We'll see how long I can keep up with it!
So I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. It got really bad last fall to the point where I dropped out of college and was physically ill for quite some time. Then I was able to get some medicine and I've had no anxiety for at least 3 months now. :) But I feel like it is starting to come back. Some days I get sad and then I worry. It's always about stupid things that I can do nothing about, but it's like my mind won't accept that. Lately I have at least been able to have comfort in knowing that I did not make the wrong choice in dropping out of school. I was going to be a pharmacist, but that's not a job I would personally enjoy very much. I'm a creative soul and thus I need a job where my creativity can be let loose. Now I am thinking about cosmetology! I am very excited and hopefully it will work out. I'm also trying not to let myself have too much free time because when I do my mind wanders and thus I start to worry again. By keeping busy, (most times by cleaning) I can not only get many useful things done around the house, but I can also simply be happier. And that's all I ever want.