Since I quit oxys...

Ever since I quit oxys I've been drinking a lot b/c there's nothing else to do and it helps me get through my rough days...it seems as though I drink so much more at a time though...but when I drink at least I'm not thinking about doing oxys..which I think about pretty much constantly...I just wish the cravings would go away. I wonder to myself if they ever will go away and what a scary thought it is that maybe they never will go away. How am I supposed to do this thing if the cravings never go away....I've been clean for a month which is great but I feel like my life was stolen away from me forever. Every other minute my brain tunes right back to the cravings, the cravings, the cravings...which goes hand in hand with the anxiety...which makes it all even worse....