i help fuked my life

others have helped me fuk my life more than what i already have and i'm hurting like mad just recently breaking up with my man and i've been cheating on him with his old friend and now that is fuking up right now as i right this but most of all my main big time problem is i am so fuked up and hurt about my beautiful precious babies, they really need me but not until i fix myself up and then i will try to see them and i know i will but i cant even answer my self why i let myself go through so much pain. all my problems have fully buit up on me and i'm completely fukin myself over. i really need help.