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I still get so attached

Feb 16, 2010 - 0 comments
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speration anxiety

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no school

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snow day

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odd dreams

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snow

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bad conditions

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cevra

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marshmellows

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trazodone

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prozac

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Remeron

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antidepressants

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Anxiety

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car crashes

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spinning tires

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snowbanks

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ice

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shoes

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suede leather boots

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fancy prom shoes

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beautiful



To meds. Even when I spend the whole time I take them moaning about how I don't like them and whatnot  when you tell me I have to get rid of them, even when I've asked, upsets me a little. They are like friends of mine. And they have as many flawa as a person does. It's almost 12:30 so I should have gone to bed an hour and a half ago, but the night isn't working like it should be. No school, but when we woke up there was also no snow. I was very confused. I had many dreams that have all excaped me.  I got upand accomplished nothing for r a few hours.  So they my mom got home and it had just started flurrying and we were going to se Devra and this huge van going to fast came out of a street and slid and it was so slippery I thought I would wet my pants then but it was going to get so much better. We got to Devra and  we talked and I thought I expressed a lot. I am stopping Trazodone and buspar. And starting Prozac. I honestly want to see what all the hype is about. The good and bad. I just want to know firest hand, but it's becasue I've been a lot happier on a second antidepressant, and my anxiety  has been manifesting in an obsessive  way. So a med for OCD should help. MAybe I'll till be acrazy *****, but for people to not hate me so much would be nice.  I'll give it a try. If not, I will start REmeron next week.  We left and went to Alec's shoes, moving so slowly  we didn't make the light. TWice.  It was still kindof funny, the snow. We shopped for boots and I felll in love with the most comfy boots, leather AND suede, and beautfil. We just need to water proof them and wow.  I also found shoes to wear with my prom dress and I'm happy about that too. They're beautful. But as usual I did that can't oose  going to take two hours thing and it as so much snow when we left. And getting dark and we're driving home and there's traffic and tows and everything. MOving slow, trying to take flat roads. We're chugging along, slowly but surely.  Up one hill. Not sliding. Up anoter. Fine. This one though- huge incline, turn at the top,curvy with no sidings, on a hill. We're making our way up, so close to the top and our tires spin and we're going no where. CAn't move, just keep rolling backwards. Even the truck that passed uswas spinning.  And we had to 8 point turn in this snow in the middle of the road on a hill with cars unable to stop. If someone had come around that corner we would all bedead. A man sped by us and we must have startled him? He did some odd spins and ended in the snow at the bottom of the hill. We felt bad but it was just spinning, not crashed. He was ok. He turned and kept going. A different way, seeing cars all over the place in snow banks. It's so scary to see.

Sorry I'm hurrying it's so late. And I need to shower and everything. Toamarrow's twin day.  I'm going to be the white rabbit thurs. I have YAP tomarrow and I'm excited for it.  Indiv starts next tues.  Modeling thursday.   I need to work on so much and on late my dose maybe I'll be less tired and pained tomarrow morning. Well whatever bye. How immature of me.

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