sometimes...

Theres days where I cant seem to make anyone happy. Of course we all have them but i battle with being bipolar. So i know theres days of really highs and really lows, but being in relationship that is really hard to express my feelings, cause to me, Im expressing them the best i can. I think sometimes i feel inadequate. Because of my lack of expressing and the right words, I seem crazy sometimes when i feel sad or upset. I try to tell the one person in my life, that should care and he tells me Im crazy, or tripping. Or he even laughs when i cry sometimes. Now its not him Im complaining about, hes wonderful to me and my daughter. But i think he also has a problem with dealing and expressing emotions, feelings and so forth. But it makes me feel like theres no emotional bond with him towards me. I mean i know what i feel, i feel lots for him and my emotions and love towards him, i try to show nonchanlantly ALL the time, everyday. But i get nothing in return, barely a quick thigh rub. HA.... makes me more depressed to even just think about it. Is it me? Am i not sexy enough for him to wana touch me? i mean what else would a woman think, right?
i need some insight, im lost, confused and tearing myself apart thinking im not good enough!