9th shot

I'm a lucky guy this time around.  After attempting in 2005 and getting booted off for severe depression this time around is a cake walk. Took my 9th shot last night, 9 down 39 to go whoo hooo !!! 3 riba in the morning 3 riba at night, cant forget the zoloft every morning which is a Godsend. Taking metformin daily along with Byetta twice a day is really getting my sky high blood sugar in check. I honestly have no complaints and everything is managable.

I have an occasional off day but the next is better. I go to work every morning at a very stressful job work 8-12 hours watch a little TV then off to bed and start over. On the weekends I take some down time. If I'm tired I sleep but still manage to catch up lundry, mow the yard, clean the house etc.  Am I normal ?? No I'm not, I'm diffrent, I'm more tired at the end of the day, I have some brain fog from time to time, much dryer skin, get worn out a little quicker on the weekends but hey nothing a little down time nap wont fix.  In a nut shell very managable.

Bottom line I live my life like I'm not on treatment and attack each day like I'm normal. Best of all the meds are working, viral load dropping, liver emzymes normal which is the first time in forever. Not too bad for a 1 a guy. I think my saving grace is I dont LIVE Hep C.  Oh sure I do whats right, I dont drink etc etc but I just dont get hung up on how bad something is or could be. So what if I have Grade 2-3 stage 4 liver damage I still feel pretty darn good and can do whatever I want.

I think this forum is great and check in every couple of weeks and speed read some posts. While I think its great for many people to have the support they need I think its possible in 2005 it was detremental for me. I lived it daily. Everyday several times a day I was reading, posting and since many felt like **** I figured I should feel like **** too. Before it was over I was severly depressed and couldnt fubction at home or work.  Not living it isnt the only reason its better now and I have to think the zoloft is a Godsend on my level of tolerence with life and rage. Since starting 9 weeks ago work has been a bear, my 1 year old heat pump had to be replaced and went without AC for almost a month fightning over warranty, had a lightning hit at my house that destroyed 1000's of dollars of electronics, BUT I was able to cope with only one fit of rage that increased my zoloft dosage but its all good now.

Bottom line I take my meds, catch up on rest when I need to, use more lotion, if I have an off day know that tomorrow will be better and if its not the next one will be and the weekend always comes and I can get more rest.  Hey if it works its great, if I reach SVR and keep it its awesome, if I dont, I can change it, but I keep living my life and enjoy what I have.

I have a friend in his late 50's that came down with ALS about six months ago and it has progressed to a point he went from Hiking and playing golf all the time to not being able to walk or do anything for himself. He cant even get in the shower with the help of his wife and she has to roll him out to the deck and use a portable camping shower. He cant unzip or zip up his pants and can barley wipe his rear if someone helps him to the toliet.  Point is this. No matter how bad we sometimes think we have it there is someone in the world that we may or may not know that has it worse. Compared to others, my life and treatment is a managable cake walk... Its all good !!!