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Trying to do to much for too many and breaking myself down.
Jul 12, 2008 06:51PM
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Yesterday was one of my biggest breakdowns. I took the day off because I haven't been feeling well and it was slow at work. My low blood counts, itchiness and now mouth and throat sores had left me very uncomfortable in my own skin. So instead of getting the rest I needed I took my moms dog to the vet, then her shopping because she still can't drive. I came home and brought the kids to have lunch w/my husband then to an Amusement Park. While at the park my mothers dog was ready to pick up so I left the kids to get the dog. When I got home I was exhausted and I was suppose to go out to a girlfriends birthday party. My husband then called and said he was busy so could I and pick the kids up. I started to cry uncontrollably and he changed his mind and said he would get them. I never made it to the party. I stayed home and had a pity party with myself and my shot.
That was not a pity party, that was a well deserved time out for sure...a good cry gets it out, and hubby got the point that you needed your space right then. Hang in there, I'm rooting for you! Just remember, this thing is a marathon too, and pace yourself, I know you'll make it,
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Hang in there, things will get better! I've always found that a good cry makes me feel better. Just try not to push yourself too hard and make sure that you take time out just for yourself. My favourite activity these days is sleeping, and sleeping some more. I've found that after a day/night of 10-11 hours sleep, my energy levels are better, to the point that I was actually able to do some gardening yesterday without having to stop every 5-10 minutes to rest. (I've had to go on a puffer for shortness of breath but have avoided the procrit so far). All the best.
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stay strong and focus on the light at the end of the tunnel...it's not a train, it's your bright future in SVR!
It's called,"exhaustion!" Your poor body is going through a pretty big assault right now, and it's not going to let you be "Super Mom"...You MUST pace yourself if you are going to make it through txing. Period. It's not just physical, it's mental too...Hormonal upheaval (picture Godzilla PMS!), dropping blood counts, your usual hectic pace...You are going to have to temporarily scale back. Allow "down time". Play board games insead of driving all over creation. Schedule it if you have to. You MUST count yourself in...Get the kids busy and have them help. Even if they are 5 years old, they can still carry laundry out of their rooms and pick up after themselves...Simplify your routine. My crock pot and cooking ahead have been life savers for those nights I feel like poo...You don't have to do everything yourself... This is CHEMO! It is not your typical bug you "just get over"... From a former super mom doing treatment... ~Melinda
You deserve a break, we're only human. Your body just had to remind you. Sometimes our spirit doesn't pay attention as well as it should.
Peace and Health
Peace and Health
Yes I know this feeling, my daughter wanted me to bring her swimming, attend parent teacher evening and hubby want to be taxied around. It like they don't realise you are sick and part of you wants to be normal. However treatment is a big assault. I took a year of work said I will be back when treatment is finished, Doctor supported me, started to take things easy and tell people. I AM NOT WELL, so please either support this or F***off. The reality of things now is they dont expect Normal. Stay with it and we will get through this together. I could not have stayed working and it hard when you have kids as you dont want to upset them and you try to be as "Normal" as you can . However you need to accept that you are on treatment and it is a rough pain in the *** time. Go for it and good luck!
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