WHY

what are you withdrawing from?

You are doing so good even if it doesnt feel like it to you.  Remember what Sadinmichigan has told you.  You are doing the right thing by posting in your journal.  Tell yourself you are on 37 days.....that is positive!!!!  We are all so proud of you.  Be proud of yourself girl as this is very hard but you are doing it.  You have 37 days under your belt.  Keep hanging in there.  We are all here for you rooting you on!!!!!    Stay strong my friend...........get back in the sun if you can!!!!  Lisa said that helped so much too!!!!                 sara

I honestly think after being on the forum that you are kicking the worst thing in the world. Soooo glad I didnt try that route to get off this stuff. Remember I still love ya!

Hey girl..unfortunately you sound like your suffering like I did..It lasted forever it seemed..at least 3 months. Not everyone comming off methadone has as hard of a time ..it all depends. Some that jump off at 10 have it just as bad..even less. i was reading an article that had said it was actually worse under 20 mg..isn't that crazy..You are more than 1/2 way through..I don't want to be undermine things..but maybe you are thinking about it toooo much. Try to get your self distracted for a bit..You know that I understand exactly what your feeling like. But taking your mind off it for a few might help..go lay in the sun..try to take a walk..Are you getting out and exercising a bit?
As far as you feeling like w/ds are back..I think that sometimes are bodies will release some of the **** that is stored up and you will have some effects from that. it will not last. I think at this point your brain is over powering you..try to not focus on how crappy you feel and start forcing yourself to think about all the good things that will be,,Hang in there girl..nothing worthwhile comes easy,..take care~

i am scared ****-less to jump, i'm at 20mgs now after being on 40mgs a day, so i'm half way there.. people have been saying just jump off now and sweat it out, problem is that i just started a new job, and have custody of my daughter 3 days a week. i just cant go through that right now..  i wish you all the best during this horrible time, but try to think of your happy place, i know, easier said than done...  i'm pulling for you, good luck & hope you start your upswing soon...     -jesse-

" A POSITIVE ATTITUDE "
"The old nest of negativism followed me wherever I went"

JUST FOR TODAY:
I want to be free of negativity.
Today I will speak and act positively!

" HUMILITY IN ACTION "
"If we were hurting and most of us do from time to time,
We learn to ask for help!"

JUST FOR TODAY:
"If I need help I will ask for it.  
I will put humility into action in my life."

These are from my Just for today book.  I hope it helps!   Just remember you are worth it!  And you can to it!  This to shall pass.

Peace,
momeluv

No, it isn't in your head.My sponsor told me it actually takes a whole year to get back to where we where before we used.That was my problem was looking to far ahead.take it a minute at a time a sec. if you have to.We have to work as hard at getting clean as we did destroying ourselves.I'm where you are this is my 5th day muscles aches and no appetite,but my worse clean day is better than my best doped up day.

                                                                                               God be with You!