nothing much today...went for medical massage, which helps sooo much with my back and neck isues, i end up having to take less painkillers and muscle relaxers than usual. id rather have that.
i didnt get to nap today, even though i wanted to so bad, but my son slept till noon so i did too. my husband gets my daughter on the bus at 8 30 when he gets home from work so i dont have to get up which works out well for me. im gonna go pig out on some cookies and maybe coco wheats or lucky charms or twix, idk what yet, but the cookies are sitting here right next to me...after this is all gone, i wont buy any more, i dont wanna be a fat blob again...fcuk that shite! ive had enough of that!
ill be dammed if i become a fat slob again...never again! i still feel fat inside, and when i get attention for being thin, im like 'who, me?' i cant take a compliment worth a shite, i always have to have my makeup perfect and my hair perfect and my clothes perfect, not the best of everyting, but ut all has to be perfect or i feel like everyone is staring at whatever it is that i see wrong...the zit i have, or the hair out of place or whatever. OCD city, here i come!