Getting Better

Today I met with my therapist, she was very helpful.  I told her about my addiction and that i was 5 days clean.  She told me to start a journal and to write down all my triggers and positive ways to deal with them at that moment.  I am very pleased with how my 1st session went that I am going to see her again next week.  I know that this time I am on my way to beating this.  I feel so good.  I still feel a little of the w/d's, but I just take some motrin to ease the pain.  I still think about the vicodin almost every hour, but I keep busy and even though my family doean't know, they inspire me to continue on this road of recovery.  I still have bad days, but I feel stronger every minute.  I came close to giving up last Friday night, but I overcame it.  The good thing is I have not asked for any more refills, I srtuggle with this daily, but I have to tell myself that I have come this far, I am NOT ganna screw up.  I feel good about myself.  I love myself and I feel like I can be a better mother and wife.  I love this new feeling.....SOBER!!!!!