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Life begins!

Jul 15, 2008 05:30AM - 3 comments

I was sitting reading my personal journal that i kept while in my early stages of c/t and some of the stuff i was feeling is crazy. It certainly messes with your head.
I cant belive i have come so far, i never thought i would get off Heroin, i seriously thought it would put me in a box before i would get off it, yet here i am! WOW....its madness.

I have seen many things while i was taking Heroin....seen many people die right in front of me through OD, i've seen kids crying for their parents attention while all the parents wanted, was a 'hit',  seen grown men cry with pain while trying to get a 'hit', but nothing would stop until that c**p was in your veins. I've seen people turn from such nice people to....well,.... people they never thought they would become.....vile...corrupt, you know how it goes. All for a narcotic charm that steals your morals, conscience, heart and your soul. Urrggghhh. The thought of it makes my stomach turn. Yuk.  

Heroin......the b**ch breeds death....her kiss an open tomb!

So....whoever reads this....please know that this fight can be won and we WILL win!

It is the start of a whole new life! A life that WE control...not the drugs.

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by bandnmom, Jul 15, 2008 08:08AM
You have come along way and you shoud be so proud of yourself!! keep up the good work. it is so crazy when you look back and see how life was then verses now. i sometimes think to myself..how did i think life was good? ya know? anyways, keep it up and i am sure this journal will inspire many!!!

by wanttobeclean, Jul 15, 2008 08:14AM
lostdreams...your post brought tears to my eyes.  Thanks for those words.  You should be so proud of yourself.  You have accomplished amazing things.  So now, YOUR life is starting...I think you may have to change your screen name to...lostdreams doesn't sound like YOU anymore!



by gator145, Jul 15, 2008 09:09AM
Hey lostdreams,

You are becoming the book of life....Y O U R  L I F E  as said by wanttobeclean..... She is right it is your life..... Keep on writting and you will learn a lot about yourself you never knew..... Share that with others and you will be their hero as you are mine..... You are making a difference.....

As you look back at what you have gone through you recognize life as it should be......There is now a vivid comparison you can make, and from that make  logical choices as you continue forward with the great life you have built  for yourself........... It is your determination that has got you this far..... Your Faith in God and man has helped you keep going when you was going to give up so many times.... You have to be proud of yourself lostdreams as I am so very proud of you.....You have become a great inspiration for others..... You set the bar high and have overcome obstacles one by one.... When using drugs of any type the bar is always high......That is why it is so difficult to get away from the beast......
You have made your choices well.....You have become a wonderful role model for others to see and can say this can be done....Yes it is so very hard but you are doing it every day..... You are my friend and I am so glad to have you in my corner.....You are the best and I want the world to know I love you for what you are doing and who you are......
Lostdreams keep up the great work as others are watching you ....They respect you....They believe in you And rightly so.....    Gator

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