Amazing Day 9...

Well we have gotten through the last 9 days of James being sober ( baby I know you are reading this and I am so proud of you), these have been some of the toughest days being the one to watch the person you love go through this pain with many more days to go... Its a struggle but well worth the JOURNEY because we are doing it together...

As James stated in his post earlier today in regards to not waking up with me in a place he didn't want to be, I have to say this was a hard thing to go through kicking the one you love most out on the streets not knowing if he/she will come back or if they really understand that you mean business and helping them with the tough love that everyone talks about and not being their crutch anymore, besides going through the withdraw period that he is struggling with but he is doing an amazing job with the pain.  Between the baths to help and the long massages that I have been giving him to relax the muscles (even though  about 2 months ago I had wrist surgery) I still do it to help out.  

Since he has come home he has been clean and a different person, the caring loving person that warms my heart each and everytime that I see him hear about his day, what he has done with his day in becoming clean.  Some days he talks a lot and some days not so much, but I know, he knows in his heart that I am here to listen, sit with him, or just relax in our home...

This last weekend James and I spent our first weekend together sober and we went shopping at the mall after going to a house auction watching these million dollar homes going for pennies and the horse track (he love to go watch the horse races and bet, he won)...  One day his son is going to be here with us permanately so when we were shopping I got my future step-son a baseball night light from Pottery Barn Kids because he loves the Boston Red Sox like his daddy and then we went to Build-a-Bear and I made one for James with love from me to him, we named her Jameron (its his name and my name crammed together)... He had no idea until we got home that it was for him... I am not to sure if you all know that when you build a bear you put his/her heart inside after kissing it and making a wish.  My wish for James is that he stays clean and sober with being as happy as he can because he deserves to be happy as I believe that everyone in life deserves to be happy.  As the weekend progressed we did a little more shopping like a married couple... (SMILE) One day it will happen...

We sat down after I finished my homework on Sunday morning and we did a lot of research on him getting sober, looking for websites to help me better understand what it is that he is going through and we found this... I have to say that this site has been very useful with all of you and your knowledge to help me help him through this so, Thank You!!!  

I have to say not only am I proud of him but I am proud of each and everyone of you on here.

XOXOXO
Cameron