time is your friend

Its ok for me to shoot all this **** into my vein my life blood luvox diazepam oxazepam xylocaine alcohol absenth doloxine prozac speed crystal meth amphetamine ecstacy metaclapmramide heroin codeine mercendol zoloft then theres anal sex both giving and taking ( hetro only ). urinating on and being urinated on, drinking urine . I need to get some **** out i just dont even know where to start so im guessing this is a good place to start, why not let the world see how ****** up i have been. Why do i show so much compassion for people, care more than you can imagine but i treat myself like a ******* experiment, better not winge to much though, ive enjoyed alot of stuff.  i once held my bi-polar friend to the ground he was punching and smashing up his house and everyone just got the **** out of there, i grabbed him and held him on the floor while he balled his eyes out, i just kept patting his head and holding him tight and kept telling him that i love him.
**** i need to write a book this journal is just to start jotting **** down.