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im not and have never been a believer of GOD

Jul 16, 2008 05:44PM - 4 comments

i dont care about peoples BELIEFS , im myself very scientific, in wihtdrawal from cold turkey i didnt need to pray
i did NOT say i am powerless over thisinfact i said the opposote, i said fuckyou "I" do have the power to beat this it is ME who had to do this and for 36 hours i had belief in myself and myself ONLY and by **** i did it. You know what i believe in ( its easy to do ) i believe in PEOPLE real solid people, you can feel and see PEOPLE by **** its people who help me that and myself, i would like just write down to every person not imagined but REAL people with human hearts that have helped me.

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by jessejames31, Jul 17, 2008 03:02AM
this is pretty much exactly how i've felt for years, but it hasn't led me anywhere except in a deeper sense of loneliness and continuous attempts to get clean, only to fail each and every time...  it's no secret that i've been searching for faith, and i'll be honest i just cant seem to get there.. i really want to believe, but you cant just make yourself believe something you never have, ya know?  i'm waiting for some sort of sign, or a feeling, but something tells me i'm gonna be waiting for a long time..  i'm not really sure what my point was, but i can understand how you feel about the whole thing, and on the other hand there's something comforting about the notion that he loves us & guides us. i think i need that in my heart, because i am powerless, no doubt...  talk to you later man, hope you're doing well..   -jesse-

by genix, Jul 17, 2008 03:37AM
dont underestimate faith jess, i dont believe in god at all, BUT ive seen faith SAVE people mate, im not against it at all, i just cant trust a book written by men that thought the universe revolved around the earth and that it was flat LOL let alone a big man in the sky, that said FAITH in GOD can and DOES save people, and i dont give a **** if its real or it is not, if it saves someone then by **** thats a GREAT thing!!!! you know it dont matter how you get there if you get there by whatever means, its a beautiful thing.

Shaun

by jessejames31, Jul 17, 2008 03:53AM
i agree completely, i'll never believe some dude parted this huge *** sea so people could walk through instead of around.. and noah built an ark and put 2 of every animal and then there was a flood that wiped out everything..  the thing that pisses me off the most is that we are all suffering because eve took a bite out of an apple, that sounds so freaking stupid to me..  anyway, i'm definitely seeking help from something bigger than me, just dont know what it is..   talk to you later man,   -jesse-

by lunamama2008, Jul 17, 2008 04:39AM
Hi.
I'm new here, and just ran across your post about going cold turkey.
You're incredibly strong to be taking everything on, head-on.
If I could say anything to give you any encouragement, at all, I would.
I don't know what you need to hear.
Just know, that, even though you may not receive comments or notes from everyone who reads your posts, around here, you have a lot of people out here wishing the very best for you.

Take care of you.
Lisa

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