Mar 25, 2010
~~~Mar 17, 2010~~~
I had to laugh. My boys try to be sensitive to the "weight" things and to the "age" thing. They are trying to understand what is proper and what is not in front of girls of all ages. They are so lost on what is acceptable and what is not that it makes me laugh.
The other day, my son asked me under his breath, "So mom, uhm ya know, uhm, when are you, ya know, going to uhm, lose weight? I mean now that you have had your treatment, that should make you better right?" What is that quote? Out of the mouths of babes?
I figure the adults are wondering, but they either assume I am fine, or just are too polite to ask. I know if I am wondering, when will I hit normal? Then I cannot be upset with my children for wondering the same thing. Although I think they will be mildly disappointed that I will not be ready (ever) to toss on a bikini LOL
We've been having a lot of fun. A lot of my old self is coming back. I am excited to find myself getting cabin fever and wanting to get out. I fight getting tired like a little kid. I wanna go PLAY!!! One mile walks...in under 18 minutes, pretty good time for a family. :) Although I know I need more weight off and more toning...I ran after my sons the other day and something horrifying happened...my *** jiggled all over! I was like OMG but I have a flat butt, I have never had the much talked about "junk in my trunk". That promoted me to do something I should never, ever do...when I showered...I looked in the dreaded mirror of truth.
It's true what they say, the truth really does hurt!!!!!!!
Oh yeah, and we have been hitting the park ...and going to the movies. Me...at the movies, is like me at church on Christmas eve, it just doesn't really happen.
I want to wash that gray right out of my hair!! D A N G I T ...all the dyes have a chance to give me the same cancer I might get from RAI 131 treatments. Sooooooooooooo I have been trying to find a "green" salon to get my hair done in. One that uses vegetable dyes. I have too much gray and since the RAI 131 I have some fat wrinkles too, err crease...or uhm yeah laugh lines? Bah...I need a make over LOL I won't do it...but I can dream. I feel a bit of a toad...about to hit 40 in a few months.
My scar looks...like a scar! OMG! It's visible, but not bad. I kind of like it now. I will be all talking to someone...and if they bother me...I just bring up look at my cool scar....and the word cancer...and POOF they are done bothering me.
(cues evil music...mwhahahahahaha! That's my evil laugh.)
Hey if you got it...might as well use it!
Don't judge! O.o
I find I have issues sleeping at night. I dunno if its the medication, or if it's just when I finally settle in and try to sleep, I start thinking about the "what if's". What if it comes back...what if it spreads...
my cure for the "what if's" NCSI, CSI Miami, CSI NY, CSI LA, Bones, CSI and if I have nothing left to watch, good ole George Lopez is always there to make me laugh. The sad part is I can go on about 5-6 hours sleep, but then it only adds to me being tired the next day. It's a vicious cycle!! I'm out of real people to talk to at 1am PST...so TV fills that void :)
Mother nature is mean. True Story. The End.
I will wait a couple more cycles to see if that changes.
The dryness in my skin and hair is awful. I will say that is 100% a pain in the rear. I hate it. I have been trying to help it, but I am the true picture of a cracker: White, pasty, dry, crumbling...
Hopefully in a few more weeks I will have had some improvements to post :) I will make an update after I go in for my check up and blood work ups in a week or two.
I hope you are all well and feeling good health coming back to you my RAI buddies.