TTC 8 Months...

Oh the joy...
   Okay. 8 months now. In these past 8 months I have found out that I have an ovarian cyst. Now sure what kind but I am guessing follicular since they keep telling me it will go away on its own. We have started using this pre-conceptive lubricant. Oh, and by the way, my period is 14 days late today. BUT! Let's not get happy yet. 3 HPTs later and all I have are 3 BFNs. A trip to the gyno and another urine test (yesterday) and another BFN. Nothing new. Seeing how everything I urinate on turns to negative. Last month I used Ovulation Sticks. Every single one of them a negative. Lovely. Not the first time tho. A few months ago I tried them and the same. BFN. So, my doctor wants me to call him in 2 weeks if I have started bleeding and he wants to put me on pills that will make me bleed, and hopefully give my period the kick in the butt it needs to get started. But what ***** is I still have this little hope left in me....What if I AM pregnant, and I just don't know it yet. It doesn't help that my husband believes and keeps telling me the same. Who knows, I just don't want to get my hopes up again. for the 8th time, because it really ***** when aunt flo comes knocking on my door. Whats even more crushing...2 of my SILs and my husbands cousin all get pregnant within a month of eachother. And everyone says of youre next. well....5 months later, and no, im not next. Okay, let me stop before I start crying...