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Mar 24, 2010 - 0 comments
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OCD

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GAD

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Bipolar

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bi polar

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Lamictal

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Anxiety

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Depression

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manic depression

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manic depressive



another day wasted on the couch...slept all night and all day, oversleeping again like ive not slept in years. i cant get enough sleep it seems...not fair to my kids, since i cant pay enough attention to them as id like to. i had to push myself to get out pf my pj's and freshen up, throw on some makeup and brush my hair and teeth to take my daughter to dance class. i didnt want to see people, feeling pretty antisocial actually. once i got out in the sun and fresh air, i felt a little more awake, but still anti social and blah. didnt have to bring my son which was a relief, he just stands there and dosent do anything (hes 3) and totally shy so he dosent talk or anything...i think he must be so bored! but he begs to go. he played outside while we went to dance. got home and felt a little more active, meds are stable now, i feel normal again, thank fcuk! i never ever want to feel like that again!!! it was scary!! bad! horrible!!!it was like a bad drug trip and i wanted to get off the ride and i couldnt....horrible feeling and made me all the more anxious, it was all i could think about, obsess about....

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