day 28

Today work was ok..I really do feel like its just a matter of time before they start breathing down my back because i cant get enough production done...I really do try I don't understand why i cant get as much done as everyone else...
Well actually I do know because I worry and doubt myself all the time...I keep trying not to but its hard..I dont like my job anyway but I really need the money and I would not get paid as well anywhere else..My family needs the money..

I missed the football game I was suppose to see today I completely forgot and came home just before 6pm and my family already left to go..My spouse so lovingly left a nasty note..then when i was in the bath called and left a message about how i ruined the tail gate because i made them wait for me...he makes me feel so bad..

anyway today *****..hopefully tomorrow is better.