Friday 18 July 2008 7.50pm

I went to see a Dr at this clinic I got to for counselling for some acupuncture and she's also a GP. I thought she might listen to me a let me have the tests I need to get to put my mind at ease about my hormones or what ever it is. But she said before she looks into that she wants to get the depression, my diet and lack of exercise sorted out. I was a little upset at first because she made it sound like my health problems were psycosimatic. But I get it now what she was getting at. I need to give a little to get what I want. I'm going to see her weekly for the accupuncture and she's going to keep an eye on me. So I made weekly appointments for the next 5 weeks. I suppose I'm just frustrated with the pain and everything else and wanted a quick fix, but as with most things in life it takes time. I've cancelled an appointment I had with a guy that does Nuturitional Medicine and am going to make an appointment with a Naturopath that specialises in Womens Health. The Good thing about the Dr that I seen today is that she bulkbills (is free), so taking the extra time is not going to hurt the pocket at all. I've got private healthcover for extras (no hosp) and you get a little back for the Naturopath. At the moment I would pay anything to feel well. I'm going to try and eat as much fresh fruit and veg this week as I can. Need to drink more water too, as my meds give me dry mouth a lot. I'm just so ashamed of what a lazy slob I've become, not just with my health, but with my home too. Would be to ashamed to have someone come visit right now. Got to fight a little harder I think.