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Jul 18, 2008 08:35PM - 15 comments

I havnt been on much latley, due to personal stuff going on and planning this party for my twin boys and their dad...it is tomorrow Sat the 19th i am really dreading it, I have had a really extra hard time latley w cravings, usually they hit and then go away but this time they are just hanging around driving me crazy...I couldnt go back on my promise for this party which has ended up close to 200 ppl and most will be staying the night so there wont be no drinking and driving...the age span is going to be from 17 up to 50's lmao that should be funny, anyway there is going to be alot of pills and other stuff floating around, nobody but my son and husband even know that i am an addict so i cant get mad at our friends when they offer them to me....I am going to be praying for god to keep me strong and hope who ever reads this if anyone will say a prayer for me.....I am going to need all the prayers i can get on this one...This for sure will be the biggest test that has come my way sense i have quit...
So that is why too i havnt been on much getting all this togather and prolly wont be on from now till prolly Sun if things get to bad tomorrow i will sneek in and ask all my friends here to help me...
god bless you all
bobby

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by kim715, Jul 18, 2008 08:40PM

I keep everyone here in my daily prayers,but I will send some extra prayers up for you this weekend.Stay strong,YOU CAN DO THIS.Rely on the support from your husband and your son and from all of us here.I'll be thinking of you.....Peace......Kim

by Jacqui805, Jul 18, 2008 08:44PM

I don't know what to say here, except we all will be prayin' for ya and here for you throughout the weekend to help you get through this cleanly bobby....Keep us all in mind when things are startin' to get rougher for ya, and keep your computer on so you can just go to it and type a quick "help" if you need it.. You are a lovely woman and funny as hell....you deserve good things, and you can do this...you can.

Jacqui

by cathy5841, Jul 18, 2008 08:49PM

bobby you know i am praying for you but i wanted to send ya some support. you are an awesome person and an even better friend. hang in ther girl....our little girl will be home soon and you gotta still be clean....sory i thought i would try a lil guilt there. i love you.

by bobby139, Jul 18, 2008 08:54PM

kim thank you for you prayers i need them

jacqui thank you also, i will run as fast as hell to puter and yell HELP if i need it...if it was cold and i still had wood pile up i could keep myself busy and wouldnt even think of pill    unless i farted agian lol.....thanks hon

cathy my dear frind thanks a hell of alot for the guilt trip lmao   thanks for being there as usual...

love you guys and i will take good pic   maybe if i can of neighbor for jacqui and cathy  :)

by Jacqui805, Jul 18, 2008 08:55PM

Hells yeah bobby, that's what I want to hear!

by joann1975, Jul 18, 2008 08:56PM

hang in there girl....you can make it through this weekend... remember we are all just a post away if it gets too stressful or the cravings too strong... you don't want to go back down that road... none of us do! I will keep you in my prayers.... and I hope everyone has fun!
JoAnn

by GoingToMakeIt, Jul 18, 2008 09:23PM

I know you are stronger than you think you are. I will be praying for you too. Go get some really dark chocolate. At least 70% cocoa, seriously! Eat little bits when you are craving, it really helps but it has to be dark and 70%+.

Make sure you take lots of pictures ......every hour so we can monitor your pupils.....lol........

luv,
Nauty..........

by bobby139, Jul 19, 2008 09:42AM

ok GTMI off to store to buy cocolate really i am :) i will try anything!!! ty

Nauty ya every hour i will take pic of eys and put them up they will still be red from all the beer lol. ty

thanks to all of you now i have to get ready !!!!!! bye for now

by Jacqui805, Jul 19, 2008 09:43AM

Goodness woman, you gave me a start.....I saw this pop up and I slammed it right away in case you be needin' a homey!

See how fast we are? lol

by bobby139, Jul 19, 2008 09:46AM

Oh Jacqui thank you soooo much its nice to see that you are there so fast......i might need you lets hope not but might...well i will always need you for a frend.........hell you know what i mean LMFAO am not nervous am i lol

Bobby.......You can do this....DIG DEEP and FIND the STRENGTH!!!!!
If you think the beer will weaken your resolve not to use...maybe you should stay away from the beer!!! LOL
Remeber how far you have come...one night of partying isn't worth all the hard work you have put into your recovery.
Take care.....you will be ok.........Toxic

Remember...IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT...so work it girl, especially tonight!!!!

by Jacqui805, Jul 19, 2008 09:54AM

I understand....I am going to be out sometime this afternoon, going to the in-laws'.....but until then, I'm here for you bobby...and I'm sure someone else'll have your back when I'm outta here ok? Don't sweat it, just think about that fine neighbor you apparently have, that you are not sharin' with any of us, lol

You got more prayers coming your way......all night and all day. After today, don't you need to consider whether having friends and family in your life whose idea of a party is drugs is a good thing, until you've gotten your addiction more under control? I totally understand you've got to go through with the party today, but keep your computer turned on, and run back and forth and we'll hold an AA/NA meeting on line.

by bobby139, Jul 21, 2008 01:00PM

hay all havnt had time to get on ppl always around puter but wanted to let ya all know i made it though so far and it is almost over!!!!!!!!!!!!! trashed house but over :) jacqui i think i got some good pics of nieghbor lmao
thank you all so much and thanks for all the texts though this
love ya
deb

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