2 weeks later

ITS ALL SO GOOD.  I KNOW THIS IS THE HONEYMOON PHASE BUT I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH BETTER I FEEL THAN 7 DAYS AGO.  I WAS ON THE COUCH.  I HAD 2 NIGHTS OF NO SLEEP WHICH KILLED ME ALMOST AS FAR AS MENTAL MELTDOWN.  I WAS A BIOTCH LAST FRIDAY BUT MAYBE IT WAS THE FULL MOON.  THIS WEEK MAKES A TREMENDOUS DIFFERENCE AS FAR AS FEELING BETTER.  I DO HAVE HIGHS AND LOWS AND DEPRESSION BUT I DONT NEED A PILL TO FEEL BETTER.  WHEN I CRAVE I EAT AND MAN HAVE I BEEN EATING BUT THIS IS BETTER THAN POPPIN PILLS.  ITS A DAY BY DAY STRUGGLE I HAVE TO FACE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE BUT I KNOW I WILL MAKE IT.  I HAVE A VERY ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY BUT I ALSO CAN BE VERY STRONG WHEN I GET SOMETHING IN MY HEAD THAT I WANT TO HAPPEN AND I WANT THIS IS HAPPEN.  PILLS HELP NOTHING.  THEY ONLY NUMB YOU AND PUT YOU IN A DIFFERENT STATE OF MIND TO FEEL BETTER.  TOWARDS THE END OF MY ADDICTION THEY DID NOTHING BUT PUT ME IN AN AWFUL STATE OF DEPRESSION.  DOCS SHOULD BE MORE CAREFUL WHEN HANDING THESE DRUGS OUT.  BUT I GUESS THEY DONT CARE AS LONG AS THEY MAKE MONEY.  ANYWAY IM LOOKING FORWARD TO A CLEAN DRUG FREE GOOD LIFE AND I WISH EVERYONE HERE THE SAME.  EVERYDAY WILL GET HARDER TO RESIST BUT BE STRONG AND THINK BACK ON DAYS OF WDS.  I WOULDNT WISH THAT ON ANYBODY.  I WILL POST NEXT WEEK.  BACK TO WORK MONDAY UGGGH .  ILL BE OK.