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July 18th

Jul 19, 2008 06:48PM - 4 comments

As I was going through the various forums and answering messages and notes, I noticed that I hadn't completed my mood tracker or journal for yesterday(July 18th), so here I am playing catch-up.
Met with my therapist and really didn't discuss much since the past week for me had been pretty good except for some ongoing physical pains. We did talk about this website and she said whe was going to check it out. She seemed excited for me, in that, I had found this site and she felt that with my research capabilities, my knowledge and my experience, I would have a lot to contribute.

Even though this is somewhat true, since I'm a bit of a geek, and a whiz at research, I find myself gaining more from the site than I sometimes think I'm contributing. There are so many people here from varying lifestyles, backgrounds and history, that a day doesn't go by, that I don't learn something about myself.

Instead of meeting with my new doctor , I met with the nurse pratictioner who basically just went over my medications, although I did get her to change my pain management plan from Tramadol and Tylenol#3 to strictly Tylenol#3, which, in the long run I think wil be more beneficial in controlling my chronic back and ankle pain. If not we can always try something different. Most doctors that I have dealt with have always been very receptive to my recommendations for changes in medications and/or dosages.  I did, however, forget to have her check my throat, since I've been dealing with a slight sore throat for about two weeks now.  I have to go in later this/next week for some bloodwork, so maybe I can corner someone and have them take a look.

I've been trying to get my son-in-law somewhat organized since he has documents spread out all over the place and it just drives me nuts. Anyway, my daughter told me that he found some documents that I had discarded and was a bit bent out of shape over it, but I'm sure he'll get over it and it won't stop me from throwing away those things I don't think he'll ever need or reference again.  Today, for example, while I was going through some papers I found a personal check written to him for over six hundred dollars that hadn't been cashed and was dated November of 2006. I think he's going to end up taking a loss on that one.

Went to bed early last night(Friday) because I was feeling exhausted and slept very well.

I also took all my medications, although I found out I was supposed to be taking my iron supplement 3 times a day and I've only been taking it once a day.  I'll correct that immediately.  I take the iron because I'm slightly anemic, although they haven't been able to find out a reason for it. One of those great mysteries which may never be solved.

"Peace is not achieved by controlling nations, but mastering our thoughts."  John Harricharan

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by ParamedFlorena, Jul 19, 2008 07:04PM
I'm sorry you're not feeling so great. Yo udo sound hopeful though. That's important. I once thought that the more you could understand and be in control of, the better you'd feel - but the greater understanding is now that there are reasons for meeting people and there are reasons that some will come with you along to the future. The chain, the puzzle. As a hindu this might sound familiar to you?
It is so incredibly much more calm and tranquil over it. I might convert but first I need to find myself dary enough to learn meditation from the teachers I would probably find in some country which isn't here.
Seeking fortune and success can happen. By letting go of worry and concerns, maybe?

Thank you for what you do for MH.

by Jikan, Jul 19, 2008 08:38PM
Namaste,

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement.

I have found that although we can control our own being, it oftentimes is better to let go and feel your emotions rather than trying to control them.

A Buddhist saying goes:

                                    Pay no attention to the faults of others,
                                    things done or left undone by others.
                                    Consider only what by oneself is done or left undone.

And although I'm not Hindu or a Buddhist or subscribe to Taoism, I have developed a mixture of spirituality dervied from a multitude of both Western and Eastern thoughts and practices.

Only through knowing oneself, will I be in a position to help others.

by bulldozer, Jul 20, 2008 04:42PM
Hi Michael,

How nice to read that you are feeling "tranquil" a truly great place to be.  It is interesting that my pdoc who is Asian is always recommending yoga and meditation to me.  She often says to me "the trouble with Westerners is that they want a quick fix from medication, they would all feel so much better if they just slowed down and took time to meditate".  I think she has a very good point and I think over the years I have made my own type of meditation.  I have always since a small child, taken time out to be by myself in complete peace and quiet where I "go into myself" and if I have been unable to do this for any reason I notice that sounds become too loud, colours too bright etc - do you find this?  I'm just interested in knowing whether anyone else does this because it is something that I've always had.

Wishing you continued tranquility,

Helen

by Jikan, Jul 22, 2008 10:25PM
Namaste Helen,

Sorry for the delay in this response, but I was in one of my isolation modes.

Meditation is different for everyone and we all have to find the "Proper Path" to Enlightenment.

"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make our world."  Buddhist saying.

Michael(Jikan)

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