Apr 01, 2010
I just need an outlet to express my mood and how what these VERY long 40 days has been like to me. Uhm, so yeah, I mentioned this on the site a couple of times but I was scheduled for my full body scan this week but to no avail-- for whatever reason, the hospital did not receive the medicine on time so my appointment was pushed back to April 12th. I guess this wouldn't be that bad...but considering I haven't had any Synthroid in me since February 22nd, my life has become a living hell these past couple of weeks. At first, for the first couple of weeks, my body was okay, I didn't notice any drastic changes. I was even going to the gym 3x a week. I was tired sometimes, a couple of aches and pains but nothing bad, I actually felt 10x better than before because I was extremely hyper so I'm thinking okay this isn't going to be so bad...so sadly mistaken.
Than I started to get headaches, like everyday. Wake up with one, have one in the middle of the day, and go to bed with one, and wake up and repeat the whole process all over again tomorrow. This happened for maybe 2 weeks, everyday. And this happened before, right b4 Thanksgiving but it was before my period so I just figured it would leave when my period came. But now my period came and left and the headaches are even worse. I think it might migraines actually..nausea..dizziness..just feel like ****. I did read a couple of articles with the link of hypothyroidism and headaches but this is just too much. Coupled with the crippling headaches I'm just SO tired. I would go to the mall, and I'm tired just from walking around. It's just a lieu of other things, I really can't even think straight to sort out everything that has been bothering me but it's mostly been the headaches, fatigue and sometimes irritability/depression.
By the time I go to my appointment..and hopefully the medicine will be there... it would be the 50th day w/o my Synthroid and I'm just hoping that I don't have to get any RAI treatment so I can start my meds again because I honestly feel like I might have to jump out the window to my death and end this pain. I'm really not being serious on that one but I just can't do this anymore..nobody really knows how much pain I'm in. I can tell them but they can't feel what I'm feeling and I just get upset at the thought that I have to suffer like this. Well I have no choice but to wait until 4/12 but I just wish the time would fly by.