my story about friday...

OK here goes. I was afraid to tell you all but thats what I suppose you're here for right? I was STUPID and took a little methadone on friday. EVEN when nearly everyone had convinced me not to. It was one of the WORST experiences of my life and I honestly don't know how anyone only on pain meds. could stay on something that awful. I had the worst abdominal pain, and the worst migraine I've ever had when I woke up yesterday morning. Oh wait, when I got up out of bed after tossing and turning ALL NIGHT! Couldn't even sleep on it either! I apologize to those of you that I pretty much promised I wouldn't touch methadone. NOW, I can say I promise and I never will!!!! It was awful and I feel as though I'm lucky to be alive. I'd rather be CT off ANY pain pill than be on methadone. Seriously!! BAD experience and so glad it only lasted a day! I still can't take my panic attack meds either because they don't mix well with it and the horrible **** stays in your system for up to 3 days? awful! In a desperate attempt to make my migraine go away I took a couple norcos yesterday and like MAGIC the pain was gone. Today I've only taken 1/2 a norco and for me, thats great!! I think tapering is going to be the best way for me and I think this awful, scary, emotional, sleepless experience has helped me realize that I am strong enough to taper! If I was on that other **** I wouldn't be able to go to work anyway! So just wanted to let you all know what had been going on with me the last few days! i know this place is going to more and more helpful to me every day. :) And thank you all again for listening to me! Even when I apparently don't listen to you....

Stupid pills