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Letting Go
Jul 20, 2008 10:41PM
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I am getting ready to send my youngest son Daniel & his Fiance` Shannon this Friday, they are moving to Taft, CA it is near Bakersfield. I know in my heart this is going to be good for them, Shannon has accepted her first teaching job, she is going to teach 3rd grade. It is just very hard for me to completely let go, but I will. My oldest son & his Companion Jason are in Torrance, CA and our Oldest Daughter Karie is in St. Louis but her kids are in Virginia(long story). Our youngest daughter Debra, her husband and my granddaughter just moved in March to Arizona. I love all my kids and grandchildren very much. I just miss them, I know I am going to miss Daniel & Shannon very much.
My husband, Mike well he is trying not to show much emotion regarding Daniel moving, but I know there are going to be alot of tears between them too, they are very close. Of course Mike is trying to deal with me, the Fibro, depression and all the other things that come with Fibro. Medication dosage changes. We have had a long talk and know there are going to be days he may not want to be around me, I may not want to talk to him. But we will never give up on each other. We are in this marriage until God decides differently. I know Last week I really was considering suicide. Thanks to my husband, and a couple of good friends and the Forum Family I got through that very bad day.. I am going to try to not think like that, I am going to be a mess on Thursday and Friday, I know my Forum family, my friends and Mike will be there for me. I know I have a lot of serious issues to deal with but I am going to try to deal with them. I still dealing with the depression and chronic pain daily plus Fibro. and that comes with it.
I am very thankful to each person who sent messages, notes to remind me I am not alone, we are in this together.
So that is my goal, I just hope I am feeling well enough to do it. I am having trouble with my balance when walking or just standing. I keep bumping into things, I have been doing this for about 3 months now. So I have a few bruises.
With that all being said, I am going to get ready for bed now. I hope all of us have a good week.
My husband, Mike well he is trying not to show much emotion regarding Daniel moving, but I know there are going to be alot of tears between them too, they are very close. Of course Mike is trying to deal with me, the Fibro, depression and all the other things that come with Fibro. Medication dosage changes. We have had a long talk and know there are going to be days he may not want to be around me, I may not want to talk to him. But we will never give up on each other. We are in this marriage until God decides differently. I know Last week I really was considering suicide. Thanks to my husband, and a couple of good friends and the Forum Family I got through that very bad day.. I am going to try to not think like that, I am going to be a mess on Thursday and Friday, I know my Forum family, my friends and Mike will be there for me. I know I have a lot of serious issues to deal with but I am going to try to deal with them. I still dealing with the depression and chronic pain daily plus Fibro. and that comes with it.
I am very thankful to each person who sent messages, notes to remind me I am not alone, we are in this together.
So that is my goal, I just hope I am feeling well enough to do it. I am having trouble with my balance when walking or just standing. I keep bumping into things, I have been doing this for about 3 months now. So I have a few bruises.
With that all being said, I am going to get ready for bed now. I hope all of us have a good week.
I am so glad to hear that you have made it over a serious bump in the road. No doubt there will be more less and even more troblesome bumps along your journey, but you have the support and help and love to get over them all. God bless you as you send another child off into the world. I am a 4th grade teacher. Please wish yur future daughter-in-law well for me. She has an important and challanging job ahead. I'm glad you are feeling some better!
In Mohawk culture, we have a "letting go" ceremony that can apply from everything to an adult child leaving home to letting go of emotional hurts. It isn't easy watching the person who was once your "baby" do adult things. Once we become parents, we're parents for good. Of course you're going to miss your son but even though he is geographically more distant from you, he is still emotionally close to you and his father - it sure sounds like it. That's just as important as having him in the next room.
My youngest daughter has been estranged from me for six or seven years and that is really painful.
Hope you have a good week too = )
My youngest daughter has been estranged from me for six or seven years and that is really painful.
Hope you have a good week too = )
I know I do not know you, or have chatted with you yet but your post touched my heart and I wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you will be better soon and I hope that you see that God will provide a way for you to feel better and He is with you always. Suicide is not the answer, God is there with you always and He will never leave your side!
One baby step at a time, my friend, you will get there eventually.
Medication change will bring on some aspects of symptoms you may not ready for. You're so blessed to have such wise talk with Mike. It is so true that sometimes, we prefer just be alone and so rare that he understood that.
Don't want to leave you long notes that might exhaust you even more. Have a gentle day.
Kit.
Medication change will bring on some aspects of symptoms you may not ready for. You're so blessed to have such wise talk with Mike. It is so true that sometimes, we prefer just be alone and so rare that he understood that.
Don't want to leave you long notes that might exhaust you even more. Have a gentle day.
Kit.
I have read your post and my heart breaks for you and your family. My children are 13 & 15. I know my day is coming for them to leave home. All I can trust in is the raising that I gave them and that they rememeber it.
They also put God first in there life and let him guide down lifes road. I am praying for you. God loves you and he has never left you. Sometimes when we go through things in life that are hard and painful. That is when God has you up in his arms and telling you everything will be alright. Just trust in the Lord and let him carry you a little while.
I promise to keep you in my prayers.
wendy108
They also put God first in there life and let him guide down lifes road. I am praying for you. God loves you and he has never left you. Sometimes when we go through things in life that are hard and painful. That is when God has you up in his arms and telling you everything will be alright. Just trust in the Lord and let him carry you a little while.
I promise to keep you in my prayers.
wendy108
Wendy,
Thank you for your comment. It never gets easier as each child leaves home, and each time I lifted them up to God a placed them in his care. I am going to miss Daniel & Shannon. They arrived safely yesterday evening.
I thank you for reminding my to put my trust in our Lord and let him carry me for a while. I have not done that in a very long time. I am tired emotionally and physically. I just want a little break.
It was good hearing form you. Thanks for thinking of me, it helps a lot.
I will try to keep you updated, I am hear for you if you need to talk or anything.
Shar
Thank you for your comment. It never gets easier as each child leaves home, and each time I lifted them up to God a placed them in his care. I am going to miss Daniel & Shannon. They arrived safely yesterday evening.
I thank you for reminding my to put my trust in our Lord and let him carry me for a while. I have not done that in a very long time. I am tired emotionally and physically. I just want a little break.
It was good hearing form you. Thanks for thinking of me, it helps a lot.
I will try to keep you updated, I am hear for you if you need to talk or anything.
Shar
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