waiting
Jul 22, 2008 11:26AM
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I continue in this same ole sleep pattern. Waking every 1.5-2 hours, like clockwork. Utterly exhausted. Do not know where to go from here. Been on synthroid for about 2 weeks now. Hoping it will kick in and I will start to normalize and finally get some rest. Started on the estrace a week ago.
I have stopped fighting it, and have just laid down the battle and am waiting to get better. All that striving was making me even more tired, and probably even hindering my healing. I don't know whether it is just giving up or giving in. I hope it is a giving in to what will be, will be.
My youngest son is going into his senior year and I have not felt like doing anything with him. I hate that so much because my family is the most important thing on this earth to me. I say that because God is in heaven, so that does not put them above Him.
I have gained an appreciation and respect for others that are battling diseases that are far more worse than mine. A new compassion if you will. I hope that when I am feeling better, I will not loose this appreciation and use more understanding and compassion to those that are afflicted. Not only them, but the family as well.
I just got home from spending a week with my parents. It was so good to be with them. Just their presence helps my feelings. They have a hammock in the yard, under 2 trees. I laid out there and rested some. It was just wonderful. It is difficult to just relax here at the house, as I am bombarded with thoughts of what I need to be doing, but am not capable of right now. That kept me from resting my mind. I did feel like we were a lot of extra work for them. They are the most wonderful people I know.
My youngest son went with me, and I got him out of the sick house. He spent lots of time with my Dad, which was good for both of them.
Now, I am back home, waiting. I am going to quit striving with myself, on purpose. I know it will be a daily battle as the enemy wants to keep us down, but I will affirm, I have the healing power of Jesus, flowing through my body. He is at work healing me even now.
I have stopped fighting it, and have just laid down the battle and am waiting to get better. All that striving was making me even more tired, and probably even hindering my healing. I don't know whether it is just giving up or giving in. I hope it is a giving in to what will be, will be.
My youngest son is going into his senior year and I have not felt like doing anything with him. I hate that so much because my family is the most important thing on this earth to me. I say that because God is in heaven, so that does not put them above Him.
I have gained an appreciation and respect for others that are battling diseases that are far more worse than mine. A new compassion if you will. I hope that when I am feeling better, I will not loose this appreciation and use more understanding and compassion to those that are afflicted. Not only them, but the family as well.
I just got home from spending a week with my parents. It was so good to be with them. Just their presence helps my feelings. They have a hammock in the yard, under 2 trees. I laid out there and rested some. It was just wonderful. It is difficult to just relax here at the house, as I am bombarded with thoughts of what I need to be doing, but am not capable of right now. That kept me from resting my mind. I did feel like we were a lot of extra work for them. They are the most wonderful people I know.
My youngest son went with me, and I got him out of the sick house. He spent lots of time with my Dad, which was good for both of them.
Now, I am back home, waiting. I am going to quit striving with myself, on purpose. I know it will be a daily battle as the enemy wants to keep us down, but I will affirm, I have the healing power of Jesus, flowing through my body. He is at work healing me even now.
Do you ever have really bad headaches or an MRI of your brain (pituitary region)? The part of your brain that modules your wakefulness/sleep patterns is the pineal gland, which is part of the endocrine system and is near the pituitary. in some cases, both can be affected by tumors (usually benign) causing a litany of symptoms. I'm only suggesting this because you can't seem to control when you're asleep/awake too well...it might be worthwhile to have this checked out to make sure there isn't anything going on there that's hindering your getting better!
I had an MRI done for my pituitary gland...this came out "normal" but incidentally, they found a 1.3cm pineal tumor. At least I know where my constant headaches (ever since I was a kid) are coming from, as well as the more recent terrible headaches and my sleep apnea diagnosis a year ago!
Feel better soon :)
I had an MRI done for my pituitary gland...this came out "normal" but incidentally, they found a 1.3cm pineal tumor. At least I know where my constant headaches (ever since I was a kid) are coming from, as well as the more recent terrible headaches and my sleep apnea diagnosis a year ago!
Feel better soon :)
Hi, right now I am in limbo waiting for the endo appt.
I do not have headaches, but I hoping that the new endo will check out the pituitary gland and will suggest it if she doesn't.
In everything I have read some people with hypothyroidism suffer from insomnia. I just hope that if I ever get my meds correct and the levels normalize, this will resolve.
Thanks for your input. It is greatly appreciated. I do hope you are doing well. Hope you can get your issue resolved.
I do not have headaches, but I hoping that the new endo will check out the pituitary gland and will suggest it if she doesn't.
In everything I have read some people with hypothyroidism suffer from insomnia. I just hope that if I ever get my meds correct and the levels normalize, this will resolve.
Thanks for your input. It is greatly appreciated. I do hope you are doing well. Hope you can get your issue resolved.
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