My Journey

There are so many things about addiction that I don't feel equipt to handle but the 1st step of course is getting off the oxy;s. Today I took 1/40 @11am. I have a 20 for 2morow.
I hate this panicky feeling I get when I'm withdrawing. I hate shaking, chest pain, anxiety attacks and feeling like I can't do anything unless I'm high.
I'm doing this though, for me, for the life I want to have. From experience I know that nothing is magically fixed just b/c I get off the pills, one step at a time, one day at a time, one minute at a time.